No Title · 3:02am Oct 3rd, 2015

This is has been one rough week. So many mistakes made, so much time misspent. I feel horrible. I have a lot of work to do this weekend preparing for a test in my difficult probability course. I'm going to finish writing out what I want to say for an oral presentation on the twelfth. I have to study and work on a couple of other things, too.

I almost thought I was going to lose points on the writing assignment due this Monday because I failed to turn it online out of forgetfulness. I turned in a hard copy in class, thinking that how it was supposed to be accepted, but my teacher let me know Wednesday that it was okay.

I realize that I won't be able to attend either of the career fairs I should probably attend as freshman actuarial science student because I don't even have enough chance to research the companies that will be attending, my classes that day overlap with the event time, and I can't even transport myself there.

I tried to schedule an appointment with my academic advisor at the university just so I could have a friendly chat with him and get to meet him and ended up vacuously scheduling the appointment during a time I'd have class. I found out this morning less than an hour before the appointment time after I had slept in because I've been losing sleep. I apologized and was frank about it, and he said we could just meet when we go over what classes I should schedule for next semester.

We had a student panel in that overlapping class today. One of them was an actuarial science major. He told us we SHOULD DEFINITELY go to the career fair.

I don't think my conjunctivitis is going away. My eye still isn't bothering me, but it is still red.

But all is not too bad, I guess. I got good grades on a number of my assignments this week and have only shaved off about three weeks of my lifespan from the stress and poor eating that accompanied it.

I got back from the grocer with some lemon-flavored sparkling water, some toothpaste, some soap, and a gallon of milk.

I bought raffle tickets, the proceeds going toward funding the student crisis center (how coincidental with all the meltdowns I've had this week!), and I also got two bags of Rolos because I stuck around after the student panel and the student advisors didn't use up the candy. The raffle prize is an iPad mini. I already have an iPad. It would be pretty funny if I won it. I won an ASUS two-in-one computer/tablet during Afterglo for my senior prom in high school and have barely used it. It runs on Windows 8, so I hated it. Windows 7 all the way.

Last night I got to sing our school's alma mater with the chorus and band for a recording. The new university president wanted a new song for the music for the university's telephone holding lines. Someone remarked that our voices will probably remain there for thirty years before it's replaced. I started thinking existentially.
We got pizza afterward. That was nice, although there weren't any leftovers for me to take home.

At least one of my roommates will be gone for the weekend, which means more peace for my studying and work this weekend. The seniors keep saying that I should enjoy this as my laid back year because it gets much harder in subsequent years. Each time I hear it, it augments the cold, murky dread in me.

I keep saying I don't have time, yet I keep making replies on this site and a few others and calling my grandmother. I try to rationalize that these are just measures to keep me sane, to keep myself from working myself into the ground, but I'm skeptical. I feel idle even though I'm accomplishing so much.

I also bought a Rarity plushie today from my Bulgarian Brony friend Daniel in Bulgaria. He actually has another handmade Rarity plushie on hand for purchase, but he's not doing plushies much now due to a lack of interest from his buyers. It's been cold here, and I would love to have Rarity, or any pony, really, by my side. I don't know how the roommates are going to react to her. They're men who would have no interest in ponies.
Anyway, if anyone reading gets the chance or is available dA, I suggest you watch him. He's trying to improve his art abilities (I assume drawing, but he's been a little vague) and wants to reach a point where he can start making money off it. If you're not interested in an artist, you'd likely like him as a human being. He's very pleasant and approachable. He's fond of argument but in a reasonable sense. He's a deep thinker with huge penchants for video games, older cartoons, ponies, and science.

Well, it's now 11. I should probably head to bed soon. I apologize to those waiting for me to do something productive online other than talk, if that constitutes anybody at all.

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