May
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2015
On the Other Side · 2:55am May 20th, 2015
By which I mean graduated, not dead. The grass isn't as green as I thought it'd be, but there's still grass, so I'm good with it.
I'm doing some freelancing, which will take up quite a bit of my time, but I should still be able to make time for writing about magical horses. With any luck, we will see more of Luna being evil and Pinkie getting killed before too long.
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SugarPesticide · 354 views
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"The grass isn't as green as I thought it'd be."
For some reason.. that seriously rings my mind pretty hard right now. Honestly, no matter how depressed or ecstatic I've been in my life, I could never shake off this nagging feeling of.. being so lost. I could walk through the greatest areas life has to offer, and in the end I feel empty. That something is missing. Every so often at months, it haunts me so badly that I cry at a certain night, and not even know why. The only words I feel that resonate in my mind during those moments are those of being lost, empty, and even feeling like I'm not suppose to be here.
In truth, thinking about the world today as a whole.. it makes me so depressed. Twists my heart to think about.
Er.. that's just me going on, probably talking about something else other than what you're feeling. Sorry
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I get you. Life is full of disappointment and broken hearts, and I've been down that road before. Over the last couple days, actually. But things do get better. When I originally wrote this blog post, I was pretty confused about where I would go once I graduated from college. A few months later ... I'm still confused, but I'm a little more confident in what I can do, and that makes all the difference. Life is hard, but no one has it together, not entirely. All we can really do is improve ourselves and find reasons to smile
3379097 Glad to see that you've found some positive things to drive you, I really am. I'm also very thankful for you sharing this with me. Truly.
I understand about life being hard. I have a somewhat distorted sight on life; confused really. Maybe as much as you are, or not.. but regardless, confusing. For me, what hurts most today is.. how ugly people can act towards one another. I witness this all, acts upon acts, and don't squirm or flinch the slightest. But it gets to me when I least expect it, and I just breakdown. It's confusing when I'm witnessing the world just go on through.. I don't think anything of it, how bad things can be, and how terrible people can be with one another. I go along with it, and like you say~ "Find reasons to smile".
I live like this everyday, and smile for everything; to the smallest of fortunes, no matter how insignificant. I share many smiles, and create just as many smiles when I can. I really do it all from the bottom of my heart. But the immense negativity that I just.. feel, looming around sometimes-
It can be diabolically overwhelming for me.
I just had all this insight from this small conversation of ours. I feel like I've discovered the source of my many pains, holy-
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Heh, again, thank you for sharing your response with me. It means alot more than you think.
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No problem! I'm glad I could give you that insight.
It's true that people can be jerks. But people can also be saints, and saints aren't very newsworthy - not compared to arson and murder and terrorism. We don't see stories in the news about golden anniversaries, or individual graduations, or how a little boy became an older brother. But that doesn't mean they're not there, bright spots in people's own life stories full of ups and downs. Things will get better. Maybe not right away, but they will get better
Also, when everything seems bleakest, you can always turn to ponies. And funny cats. Ponies and funny cats always cheer me up.
3379613 I smiled just now. A genuine smile. Your bright, optimistic, and goofy response on ponies and cats~ I use to say things just like that..
That, and the optimism. The down to earth, yet optimistic paragraph of yours. Not trying to sound like a creep, I really mean it in that I use to be like that. The years have milked it away, maybe to someone else... perhaps you were the one that stole my positivity?
I'd like it back please.
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Haha, I kid. Keep it.
In truth, I can only be more and more sincere when I say thank you. For the responses, for sharing your time with me, gahhh~ C'mere and gimme a hug.
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*hug*
3380022 -squee!-