I wish I had more time to art... · 2:07am May 12th, 2015
So, I made a recent pilgrimage to my folks' place in a different state for the weekend. There, I didn't bring my computer to work on AGOKAPPP because we meet out in our cabin out in the sticks with no internet, so I spent my nights reading.
As I dug through my mother's bookshelf of old books, one particular book caught my eye: "Chicken Soup For The Soul." How old? It was a gift for my father back in 1993 (I know because there is some writing on the inside of the cover). So it is pretty old.
Anyway, without getting into specifics, my life hasn't exactly been easy these past few years, and a recent event really shook things up after I finally thought I got myself onto some stable grounds. Well, I was able to see the silver lining of my predicament, but as time wore on, it became harder and harder, and just doing what I need to do has become quite a challenge. A little pick-me-up is something I could really use.
Reading a few stories, I found one that gave me that wonderful sensation of understanding.
Here is the entry in its entirety:
We Learn By Doing
Not many years ago I began to play the cello. Most people would say that what I am doing is "learning to play" the cello. But these words carry into our minds the strange idea there exists two very different processes: (1) learning to play the cello; and (2) playing the cello. They imply that I will do the first until I have completed it, at which point I will stop the first process and begin the second. In short, I will go on "learning to play" until I have "learned to play" and then I will begin to play. Of course, this is nonsense. There are not two processes, but one. We learn to do something by doing it. There is no other way.
John Holt
Chicken Soup For The Soul, Page 132. Copyright 1993.
I have been working on AGOKAPPP for over four months now. I feel like I am a much better writer than I was when I started.
Now, if only I had been drawing everyday during those four months instead of weeks apart. I have not been taking the time to draw a little in the morning, but looking back at some of my older stuff right before stuff happened, I can see the truth from the story above.
At my last job, I would arrive a few minutes early and sketch quickly with a pen. Below are a few in about a two month span. I can only imagine how much better I would have been if I hadn't stopped.
But, I've learned not to dwell on the 'what-could-have-beens.'
Working on AGOKAPPP, even if it is flawed, has been a great mood and confidence booster. Especially when I get feedback.
So, to everyone who has seen my stuff, thank you and keep on keepin' on with whatever you're all about.