i did it... · 7:46am Jan 8th, 2015
Im siting by the toilet, after a violent spell of throwing up. You want to know why? I tried to kill myself. Yep. The so called happy teen tried to die tonight. Why, might you ask? Because i just received several hateful comments from students in my school, 4 threatening letters in my mail box, and i also got punched!! I took the pills. Spent the next 4 to 5 hours throwing up. I called the police once i was able to stand without falling over. they are on their way right now... so if i am not on for a long period of time, its probably cause i am at the hospital.
Im not telli g them about the letters. I juat dont want to cause more problems. Besides, im movi g away soon so i might as well cut all ties wth the town.
Dont give me the usual cliché about how suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem or any of that. I get enough of that from other people. If you want to try and cheer me up in the 30 minutes i have avalible... you can try.
Oh, Jesus... Why didn't you come to me? Why didn't you talk to me?
2708366 if you saw the state of mind i was in (and still am in ) then you would understand.
2708368
I'm sorry... It's just... I'm your big bro... it hurts that I couldn't help...
*hugs you* I hope that you'll be back from the hospital soon
I love you, little sis...
I don't want to lose you...
2708375 *sobs* im sorry...
2708373 *hugs back* as do i...
2708376
Shhh... (Hugs) I'm scared... Not angry...
sweet Solaris..... I understand, and now I'm all worried about you.
*Rusty hugs you tightly* Please don't leave us......
2708376
Promise me that if someone EVER does that to you again, no matter what, you will talk to me and I will help. Even if it's just music, hugs, and reassurance, I want to help.
2708377 *sobs harder*
2708380 *hugs back*
I was blessed with three surrogate sisters. I'm not losing any of my family.
2708382 cross my heart hope to fly stick a cupcake in my eye
2708384
Shh... (Rocks) I'm here for you...
2708389 *hugs tightly and sobs*
2708384 Rusty- Shhh.... we are here for you. *sings softly*
2708388
Thank you.
Remember the song...
2708392 *keeps hugging and listens quietly*
2708394 *hugs tightly as possible*
2708398
You, Ana, and Midnight gave me a purpose to my life. I feel like a hero because of you three, and it's a wonderful feeling.
By the way, the assholes that did that to you... they're not worth your time.
2708414 i um... i better go... i hear the EMTs in the house and i cant really move much... just keep an eye on SongOfTheNightmare for me, ok? I dont want her going onto a serious panic attack...
I'm so sorry. Is there anything I could do to helphelp?
2708426
I promise.
2708426 Rusty- May you be safe my dear friends on the wings of wolf angels. (Howls softly with a mournful tone)
2708428 just keep an eye on SongOfTheNightmare...
2708429 thank you...
2708432 she changed her name again? Okay, I'll keep an eye on her. Don't worry.
2708432
I love you little sis.
2708431 if i do not respond, its because the EMTs are here and took me to the hospital
2708438 understood my dearest friend. I'll draw you a picture.
You could still consider talking about the letters. That kind of behaviour should be discouraged. Regardless, I hope you'll recover soon.
Oh my, mon Cheri. I am so sorry. If you had done this a very permanent and bright light would have been snuffed from the darkness and we would all miss you... *hugs tightly* Please get better soon. We all miss you on this end.