A life changing experience · 10:34am May 9th, 2014
So I posted a thread on 4chan's /mlp/ board that was basically airing my depression, for some insane reason I decided to make /mlp/ think I had killed myself (Don't ask why, I'm not in the right frame of mind today.) and that one of my friends was telling them I did it. I was expecting apathy in it's purest form.
Then I got posts like this:
And then this was posted:
And at that moment I broke down and literally started crying...I'm not sure why...Maybe because I finally realized people do care...Maybe the world isn't full of dipshits and assholes like I thought...I was almost this so many times...I...I can't imagine what this would be like if my friends found out I had killed myself...
When you watch people actually get sad over your suicide...People you don't even know...You realize just how much you matter in the world. And how much suicide hurts everyone else around you...And at one point in the thread I was basically asked to write my own Epitaph...That will make you realize just how much life you have left.
The moral of this story is: If you are young and feeling suicidal...It's not worth it. People DO care, and as much as you may not believe it or you may not care, it really hurts others, you know how you're feeling now? You'll put your friends and family in that exact position. Do you want that? No.
And you think because you're 20 and you haven't done this or that that you never will? Bull! Imagine your name on a gravestone with a loving Epitaph. Then imagine seeing "1994-2014" under it. How much life do you think you have left? A lot, you have plenty of time to do things!
Be thankful for what you have. I, personally have a new outlook on life now, I want to seek happiness now in any way I can.
It's good to see that you're feeling better. I wish you luck as you seek out happiness.
if course people care I know I would cry and I swear not cuz no more of that story im too lazy to name right now and even if the internet is full of assholes and dipshits there are a hand full of awesome people out there I just hope im one of them cuz I do try anyway I hope you live a happy life dude (came out wrong bleh)
I don't think the world is full of assholes. It's just people tend to highlight them more than good people. There are so many smart and good people on the internet. They just tend to not make themselves known, they have seen what happens if you do that. But give them motivation, and suddenly those people are all around you, their love and empathy drowning out the angry cries of people who would try to get you down.
I'm so good at rambling it's unbelieveable, anyway. What i'm trying to say is, stay positive, try to take comfort in the knowledge that good people are all around you, they just tend to be in the shadows.
Same thing happened to me a few times when I would resolve to kill myself. My mindset was telling me no one cared at all, online or irl. Maybe the irl part is true, but that's probably because my own family doesn't understand me, criticizing me and scorning me for the mere fact that I'm a Brony.
Anyway, I'm so glad to hear from another person like you, once in the very same shoes I was. It makes me so happy to know that people can actually still feel.
I have been telling you, as well as others, that people like me and a few others do care. But this... to see people on /mlp/ of all places actually doing things like this... like, wow. Quite possibly the most unexpected thing to happen in a place like that.
Though you have said you do go on /mlp/ (for whatever reason, but I don't judge), just know that whatever goes through your mind, you will always have people like me and your other friends who do care about you. Never forget that.
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Thanks.
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The story I'm too lazy to write more of?
But yeah, there are good people out there.
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I used to think the world was just full of assholes and idiots, I've realized now that that is not true.
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That's quite a story.
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I know...I just didn't believe it till now.
But now I DO believe it. And yeah, finding that kind of sympathy and care on 4chan of all places is shocking. 
My only /mlp/ friends are on Skype so I think they'd understand.
2093597 don't use my words against me
or I'll report your story 
no but seriously have a derpy 
