Maniacal Mental Machinations (a frustrated MMM!)

I feel that I'm not the only writer that has this problem, but I'm one of the few writers I know.

"So," I tell my mind, "what do you think would make a good story?"
My mind taps its proverbial chin pensively. "Hmm, you know, I have had a few things on me lately that may work."
"You're not just teasing me, right? You know what happened with the last one, or two." If I know my mind, I know it likes to lead me on for a while.
"No, honest! Cross my heart, hope to die, stick a cupcake in my....well, I don't have those."
"Well then, let's hear it!"

......

"Sounds okay, but I need motivation to write it."
"Just read some other fics. You always seem to get pumped when you see what others write about."
*Picks up a fic that enraptures my mind*
"I....I....will never be this good. Remind me never to take your advice."
"But, if I reminded you, would you be taking my advice?"
"Shut up."

I play these mind games with myself, ultimately talking myself out of writing somehow. If I over-think the writing, it never flows out quite how I like, and the story-in-progress gets shoved to the back of priorities. I just want to write what I feel like writing, not what I feel others want written. This is kind of why I'm jotting down this little blog right now. Sorry to those who had to suffer through it. Just leave an insane author/mechanical engineer to his maniacal mental machinations.

And for those who wonder what I write in these mental machinations, I do have another story I'm struggling through right now. I just can't let my mind talk me out of it again, clever girl.

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[Unknown Quillist]

Definitely know how you feel. As a result, the only stories I ever finished were my one-shots.