).Broad Horizons Four: Damned · 10:45am Jun 29th, 2013
It took a lot longer than I expected to finish part four to date, mostly because I was deliberately dragging my heels from the end of Volume 3 onwards, most of the time. For a while there coming back to something rsembling normalcy scared the hell out of me. It's done now.
What's to say? Well expect the much promised full disclosure post, which I'm going to take to referring as the "mostly full disclosure post" because there is a bunch of stuff I'm just not going to say.
To anyone's who's tried to contact me in the past week, I apologise for not getting back to you.
I don't know what's next. There's a world out there that needs me, my sleep schedule's regular and nocturnal again. My eating isn't improved but it will have to shortly.
Which only leaves my headspace for the moment. And honestly? I don't know. I'm not actively feeling the depression at the moment, but that last volume was hard because everything feels wrong. My senses are giving out, I don't trust what I see or hear at the moment. The world shifts occasionally, a couple of degrees left or right, I'm plagued by innate twitchiness. Peace and love sing to me from distant shores. I'm somewhere between the devil and the deep blue sea. It bothers me, but it's better than it has been.
So the big question. Was it worth it?
I can't answer that yet. So far signs point to yes. The story is still one of my favourites in existence. It's not without problems and I'll talk about those... you already know. You should start seeing me around again as of tomorrow. And the full disclosure post is set for tomorrow as well.
Til then, well I'm not sure Everhopeful's appropriate at the moment. Maybe you can call me Eternal. Or maybe Pretentious.
Or you can just call me Everhopeful.
I'm glad this week's over.
