Hiatus Reason · 5:22am Apr 4th, 2023
Now, if you’ve been paying attention to my last few Blog posts, you’ll all know about my IRL situation. Now, while yes it is still going, (for reasons I simply cannot understand how they’re getting away with this), I am trying to, in my spare time when not sleeping, hanging out with friends, cleaning my place, bills, ETC, I have been TRYING, to play ARK to get some inspiration. I haven’t hit that point yet for some reason, but then again, I’m only playing for about an hour each time. So that could also be it. But, I do want everyone here that enjoys the story to know why it’s taking so long.
Burnout from my job, lack of time to actually sit down and work on it, lack of inspiration, and finally, my mental health.
From this paragraph onwards I’ll be going into a bit about my mental health. And it’s not pretty. So warning is here.
Gone…good. Now my mental health isn’t the best, I did attempt to end my suffering at one point in my life, and it was only thanks to my best friend that I didn’t, and that’s also how we met, he actually stopped me from taking my life, and his influence saved me that day, and to this day, but due to recent circumstances, I’ve been depressed, seeing all my friends, co-workers, and people on the street having a love life, whilst I have remains single, now my best friend is also single, but due to his IRL circumstances that I won’t get into here, he probably never will, as for myself, I have been looking, but most of them go along the lines of, “I say something nice about their Profile, they respond, I try to start a casual conversation, Ghosted.” And that’s been hurting me. Now I will admit I’m on anti-depressants, but that’s because of what I tried. So I’m taking them as per prescribed, so no one needs to worry. Add to the fact of my last post and that most of the people I work with being openly lovey dovey instead of working, it does hurt, also add that my gaming friends haven’t been able to join me recently due to their own relationships, so I’ve been playing ARK solo for almost the past year. Not fun when you also live alone, and are single. I will be honest, I have had the dark thoughts of ending this pain, but I know my friend would drag my soul from hell and bring me back, he has told me as much to my face, if I did end myself, but I also know that somehow, Karma will swing my way, and things’ll get better…not over night, but slowly. So I’m going to try and not think about writing, or anything. So I’m going to try and hop off of here for a week, then a month. And if I’m still not back to myself, then I will do what I did for the, “No Better Title,” series and post what I had planned on doing.
Thanks for reading this far. That’s it for my post today, so as always, have fun, take care of yourself, and remember to smile.
This is ThePerverted1EyedBrony, signing off. Bye. 👋
I see and understand where you were coming from. I don't know what you have endured for the past month or two. Must be rough, man. Don’t worry you have a potent soul and I know you can pull through thick and thin, I know you have a guardian angel by your side no matter where you are, protecting you against evil. I hope you have a good long holiday. “quote from The Lord of The Rings movie, The Peter Jackson version.”
Anyway, I hope you have a great season of spring. The cherry blossoms are still blooming. better go see them before it’s gone. you take care of yourself and have a good long holiday for a full recovery. Take care, be safe and peace be with you.
From, Caalv24, See you soon.🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸
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P.S.: almost forgot, you’ll find someone I know you will. May not be tomorrow but soon, I have a feeling you find a soulmate in most unexpected places with a hint of faith.
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Thanks for the support. I know it’s been over a week by a few days, but work’s still a royal pain. I love the GIF and I too wish you the best of luck.
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I Will my good friend, I will.