Life Update · 9:46pm Mar 5th, 2023
Nobody’s asked where I’ve gone or what happened to me yet, so my lack of updating clearly isn’t bothering many people except myself, I guess.
Consider this just a vent post. I don’t really know what I wanna say, just that I kinda wanna say stuff. I do know that I wanna say I’m still in my writer’s block, and apologize for that.
It feels a lot bigger than a writer’s block, though. For the last couple months it’s felt like my entire imagination has just… died. It’s gone. Ideas no longer come to me and the ones I had from before are like mist, intangible and indiscernible. I can’t even daydream or fantasize before bed any more. The whole power of “having a story play out in my head” has packed up, slammed the door, and took off in a taxi.
The last time I felt this way I stopped writing for almost a decade.
I really don’t wanna have to wait that long to get through it again. If I ever do. The last couple years could have been some fluke that I’ll never achieve again. Frankly right now it’s hard to focus because I’m so goddamn terrified that this is it, and I’ll never write again. And I don’t know what to do to try and even work through it.
I still want to write. The capability just seems to be entirely gone. I want to finish Oddyseed. I want to write the final story in the Pegasus Device series. I’ve got pairings I wanna write, making the cute horses kiss. But I just… can’t.
Maybe I’ll be back soon. Maybe it’ll take years again. I’ll do my best not to give up.
Till then… thanks for your patience, all. It’s been fun.
Hey, just wanted to say, thanks for all of your work so far, and I've been following odyseed closely. I'm interested to see what happens in all of your bigger universes (Odyseed, Pegasus Device etc.) Hope you get through your writer's block. Don't worry about not hearing from at least me; I tend to not bother authors while waiting for an update, as I imagine "update wen???" gets annoying. That said, you're a good writer, who I've been silently missing. Good luck and hope you're well.
dark_samus' 5716804 "'update wen???'" remark holds true for me as well. With minimal exception, it feels like I'd just bother the author more than "waiting until a new chapter and/or status update comes out" would bother me, and I'd hate to so needlessly bite the hand that feeds.
As someone who frequently runs into the same hurdle, "The words not coming" is a pain in the ass, and I'm sorry to hear that you're dealing with that right now. Wishing you the best!
About not asking what's been of you, in my case, I almost never ask that to anyone because I feel like I'm hurrying the author to write. I do care about you and your stories, but I didn't want to force you to write more if you needed a rest. I'm pretty sure the same happens with many of your other followers. We don't want to be annoying; we want more of your works, but we'd rather let you write at your own pace than rush you and risk being rude.
Really sorry to hear this! This has to be terrible for you!
Hope you can regain you‘re ability to write !
Just know that you brought a lot of people joy with your Stories!
I don't know if I speak for everyone, but I usually try to avoid asking authors for updates because, well, these things kinda happen when they happen. As scary as it sounds, sometimes you just gotta wait through these sorts of things. Just know that if you need to take your time that's fine, I'm sure we won't mind in the end. Best of luck!
Don't take silence for people no longer caring or keeping track of you. I'm particularly bad at engaging or keeping up with people.
I'm always looking forward to a new story from you, but I try not to pry for updates or anything like that. As a writer myself, I know how fickle the writing process can be.
Don't beat yourself up. You'll get that writing groove back. You've got a whole community here as well who are more than happy to see an old familiar face back. But most importantly, you take care of yourself.
We're still here and eager to read your words, just don't want to bother you with questions since your last blog already told us you are busy with life.
a friend of mine loves your rainbow factory verse, and drew tons of fan art on a site called LOFTER, she even claimed that you have been there and seen her art.
Anyway, you can take your time. just know that whenever you're ready, we'll be ready to show our support.
I feel the same way too tbh. Wishing you the best.
We didn't forget you.
Take your time to find inspiration to continue writing. I believe you will regain it in the future soon. :)
I don't ask "where is next story" and "hurry up", because, in my opinion, forced writing is not a good thing, and will lower quality of the stories.
I wish you the best of luck in finding a good spirit. Don't give up. Be optimistic.
And thank you for update!
Hang in there, it'll always be a pleasure to see you return
You've given us a few great stories, masterpieces even. Maybe we will never know how pegasus device ends, and we don't have to. You've given us a lot and we won't hold it against you if you never write again. Your life is yours. However is someday you do finish it, I'll be here. Thank you for the memories.
Good luck bubba. Take your time and figure stuff out.
I know it's easier said then done, but drop the worry. Hopefully you have people to talk to about it, if not we're here right now.
I hope you are doing good.