here I am, this is me · 9:42pm Jun 21st, 2014
I'm alive, still.
I'm alive, still.
Rumours of my demise have been greatly exaggerated. In short, I ain't'nt dead.
A person I care very much about is very sick. I'm very worried for him. He's been there for the last 3.6 billion kilometers of my journey to nowhere so far, but sadly I don't think he'll be there for another 3.6 billion. By all rights he would, but we've discussed this: the universe doesn't give a damn.
I tried to think about all the things I'd want to say here, if I actually any of you could actually help, if I weren't cripplingly shy, if I thought shitting out personal woes all over the internet was in any way helpful. I'm sorry but I don't think it is. I don't want to sound passive-aggressive, I don't want to sound whiny and pathetic. I'm not going to claim I've thought about killing myself. I didn't, not really. If I were going to, I wouldn't say I was, for starters. There's just been a
so I find myself... alive, I guess. I'm kind of mixed up at the moment because whilst I'm finally "officially" unemployed, things are still not final nor finalized.
I will forever more not understand how hard it is to merely go up to the unemployment agency and say "yeah, you remember when I had a job? Well now I don't, can you do your thing and help me not end up living in a cardboard box and digging food out of dustbins?"
You know, I've been working on King of Diamonds since at least 14th July, 2012. It will soon be two whole fricking years since I published chapter 1, and so far that was 209k words ago. What the fsck, really! I've been working on this for almost two years, and it looks like it won't be finished before the end of summer this year, either. The worst thing is it took about 9 months to release 4 chapters, but 6 of those months was a hiatus due to my life situation drastically changing, and
Yeah, that was quite a lot of fun. I wrote a stupid little story that was more or less my feeble attempt to actually live up to my end of the bargain whilst pretending to be my buddy Bradel Bound, and he goes and totally blows that out of the water by OCD'ing on story title and artwork changes, plus writing a 5k+ story that you really, really have to go read.
I've been in a bit of a rush, I don't feel quite myself, but I did manage to write a simple one-shot sequel to .
It was fun writing it, I hope you all get a kick out of it. Here it is:
roll out the red carpet and pass out the throat lozenges, as sweetflank and harps has finally updated.
Truly 'tis a red letter day.
because if you do, let me know. I've changed pillows, rearranged my bed, tried walking it off... ugh. got a kink in my neck and it's really pissing me off.