A lot of my issues stem from being extensively mistreated growing up (no, not at home).
I was forced to suppress my emotions, and now I bottle them up until I explode and the only emotions I can identify are anger, fear and shame.
I was punished for every thought, word and action, and now I feel physically uncomfortable when I'm not harshly punished for everything I say/do/think and get the urge to punish myself.

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I don't know what you people want from me. If y'all want me to stop writing completely, I'll do it. I tried so hard on this one but I can't do this anymore. I know I'll never be like Anne Rice or Poe or Stephen King, but at least give me the benefit of the doubt for even trying. And if y'all are downvoting solely because it's a queer story, then I'm disabling ratings.

So, I know it's probably not the best, but I'm trying.

My general answer would be that a woman is whomever and whatever she wants to be.

The answer that defines who I am as a woman (and my response to MTG and the GOP) is this.

I am not a creation of God. I am not from the rib of Adam. I am not weak. I am not my uterus, my chromosomes or my genitals. I am not the property or chattel of m€n. And I will not have my womanhood defined by people who have no idea what I've been through as an individual.

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Does anyone proofread for free?

I'm never writing again.

I'm writing a fic involving Puzzling and a changeling, and I need help thinking of flavors for her emotions to be.

Anyone want to write a clopfic involving their OC and mine? It would be posted on my profile but I'd be more than happy to credit.

Puzzling Insanity is a goth mare and a huge masochist (to the point where certain kinds of epidermal penetration get her off), but she still has her safe word.

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I want to give Puzzling Insanity a makeover and I'd like some ideas. I don't want people being dicks about how I need to make her skinny or her colors are shit. What I'm asking for are some ideas. She needs to better reflect me as she is a self-insert, so maybe I need to change her colors, for example.

To help you help me, here are some photos of myself.

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