Little Pieces Of Paper With "No" Written On Them

by alafoel

My Boy - Poem for Luna

Author's Note:

Short desc.: Poem written for Luna.
Reasons for inclusion: Intended as a followup to Poem for Luna from my Pony Poems poetry collection. Unfortunately, I don't feel it's as good.
Extra notes: Title is reference to the track "My Boy - Twin Fantasy" by Car Seat Headrest. Chosen to allude to the lyrics of the track, especially the line "My boy, we don't see each other much." I have come to realise since that this was a lot more relevant and telling than I originally considered.

I smiled this morning
thinking about

thinking about you, Luna

wherever you are.

Up on that moon?

I smiled.
I smiled
thinking

thinking you might be smiling too.

I don't count
the days
anymore.
I'm not that petty.
not
that
petty
Not anymore.

How long has it been?

Sometimes
sometimes I don’t-
I try not to sleep
because

because if you don’t visit

it’s not
it’s not your fault
it’s mine.

I want it to be my fault.

Not that it’s your fault.

Not that there’s something wrong with you.

You’re busy.

Being busy isn’t a crime.

You don’t have to-

I mean I still think about…
I do wish I’d see you more.

It’s not your fault.