Ditzy's Eyes

by LoLCyprus

Regrets Of A Time Long Since Gone

Soarin looked towards knock on his door. His brow raised curiously, he certainly wasn't expecting anyone, especially at this time of the day.

"Coming!" He called out, scrambling to push open the door. "Yes?" He asked before noticing who it even was, and found himself staring face to face with a furious rainbow-maned Pegasus.

"Rainbow Dash? What are you-"

"WHY?" The Pegasus interrupted, "Why did you leave Ditzy all alone?" Rainbow Dash felt her eyes become daggers as she failed to hold back her anger.

"Ditzy? Rainbow Dash, I don't know... Wait... Ditzy?" His eyes lit up as if Celestia herself was raising the sun into them. He hadn't heard that name in as long as he had remembered her immaculate face. He pushed past her, glancing left and right, desperately trying to find this mare. That is, until he realized the words she had said.

Why did you leave Ditzy all alone?

He felt his heart fall as quickly as it had leaped.

"Where is she? I haven't seen her since..." He was cut short by his own incredibly honest memories. He hadn't seen her since the accident.

"Since you left her on her death bed in the hospital! What were you thinking Soarin? She needed you! She loved you!"

Soarin's eyes widened in shock and fear. "She... told you that?"

"Yes..." Rainbow Dash held her temper, seeing the pain welling in the colt's wide eyes. Realizing his affliction she questioned as to whether or not she should continue, but pressed the information. "Did... She tell you she was pregnant at the time?"

Soarin to turn to stone. He felt like his whole had world turned upside down and kicked him in the teeth.

I have a child? Soarin's mind immediately spiraled around him, making him nauseous from her words and that sickening truth.

"I... I didn't..." Soarin began, but was interrupted by the other Pegasus's soft words.

"You didn't know... I figured. I've never heard of someone just leaving their loved one in a situation like that." Rainbow Dash lowered her gaze, rubbing her hoof into the soft clouds for a distraction.

"I felt terrible seeing her there. She could hardly even breathe on her own, and it was entirely my fault. If I had just been paying attention... Had I just glanced back to see her, I could have stopped it all.

"I spent two months with her, visiting every chance I could get, and I was the only one to visit. She was left in Ponyville after all, no one knew of her here, but... Eventually I just couldn't bear to look at her without my heart trying to rip itself out. The guilt was too much, and I had hoped she blamed me as much as I did, and I thought never seeing her again would be best for both of us.

"If I knew she was pregnant..." Soarin's words choked, the tears running down his cheeks vividly expressing his pain.

"Can you take me to her?"

"I could, but I can't guarantee she wants to even look at you." She finally asked.

I don't know if I can even look at myself anymore.

"I understand..." Soarin muttered under his fragile breath, that had now become ragged attempts for air.

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Soarin landed outside a comfortable home. It seemed to follow a familiar scheme with the houses that surrounded it. He looked at the wooden door that separated him from the inside of the house. From Ditzy. He ripped his stare away and looked at the Pegasus who quietly coughed.

"You owe me for this Soarin."

"Yes, a thousand times yes, whatever you want! I cannot thank you enough!" His eagerness was hushed, as if he was afraid to alert the ponies inside to his presence, an with a sly grin she took off, leaving him alone with his thoughts.

His gaze didn't falter from the door, his heart thundering in his chest. He lifted his hoof and, with a small pause, knocked it against the door.

He listened as a kind voice lifted from inside and quiet trotting lead to the door creaking open.

He tried his best to smile, but only managed and awkward grin as he looked into the eyes of his beloved. He hadn't seen them since that day, and even though there was something, different, he would never forget those golden amber jewels.

"C-Come in..." She stumbled, pulling the door open completely to let the colt inside. Soarin stepped inside, trying his best to search for the proper words, but is mind only ended up blank, or, rather, filled with thoughts of joy from seeing her alive.

"Ditzy, I'm sorry." Soarin muttered, knowing the words would never be enough. Ditzy raised her head and locked eyes with his. They shared this moment for a few minutes, before Ditzy finally found the words that she had been searching for herself.

"Soarin... It's okay, I... I just... Where did you go?" Her eyes started to brim with tears. Somehow her words felt like lies, even though she had hardly lied to anyone in her entire life.

"Ditzy, I always have loved you, and what happened that night never changed that, but, I just felt guilty over what happened. I felt as if I hadn't protected you like I should have. I felt like a failure, and I still do. I made a mistake that I don't know if I can ever repair. I just can't believe that I was so stupid to do such a thing to you. If you don't... I understand, because I will never forgive myself for what I did." Soarin felt his heart fill with relief with the words out of him. He never thought he would be able to apologize for his actions that night.

Ditzy couldn't find the words to respond, she only stepped forward and embraced the gentle colt in a hug. A feeling she hadn't felt for years, and soaked in every minute of it. Soarin had missed her just as much as she had. That alone was reason enough to forgive him.

Soarin felt his cheeks burn into a blush as he remembered the feeling of the mare wrapped around him. His heart melted in happiness. He never would have believed she would forgive him for what he did.

She pulled away from the hug and kissed her lover, deeply and passionately, her memories not betraying her as he felt exactly the same.

Soarin felt his bliss settle once he realized the other situation of his absence.

"DITZY!" His scream surprised her as Soarin's face lit up. "Sorry but I completely forgot, I was so occupied with just meeting you that I forgot. Rainbow Dash said you were..." Soarin watched as the mare blushed, looking away.

"Yeah, I should have told you before hand, I guess I wanted it to be more of a surprise. I can't blame you for that." She smirked, looking back to see his smile.

"Still, I'm sorry, I missed so much of my own child's life." Soarin felt his words sting his own heart as they left him. He didn't quite realize just how cold his words sounded until he had said them.

"It's alright, honestly, I've been fine and so has Dinky."

Soarin smiled and kissed Ditzy on her forehead.

"Dinky huh? A beautiful name. It really does fit perfectly."

"I'm so glad that you're back Soarin. I missed you..." Ditzy found herself surprised, thinking back briefly on the day before, if she hadn't had a chance to share that story, she may have spent the rest of her life without seeing her beloved ever again.

"Me too Ditzy. I'm glad we're finally together."

Comments

[LoLCyprus]

Alright then. She'll do. It's a tad shorter than the other chapter, but it should still be to everyones liking.

[xXchris123Xx]

the second it said there was a new chapter I was SO ecstatic and I feel better after reading it, it was an awesome chapter can't wait for more!!!

[Ninjuto]

Odd how she automatically forgives him.
Plus the fact that Dinky is a unicorn
Anither plus because Rainbow Dash is a lesbian

[Ghostwind Assasinshy]

thank you for considerate my comment now let wait for the end of the story I bet is going to be a super happy ending and for RD I hope to see her with spitfire

[BeyondThePonyTier]

So, I guess the last third of Chapter 1 didn't happen.
Doesn't bother me, at all. I got what I wanted, and this was a good second chapter.

[Inferno demon Dash]

807556 Sure....I like the story she told...but for her to just forgive him for ten years without raising their child or even bothering to see how she was...that's bucked up. He does not deserve to be the father, and he does not deserve her forgiveness, EVER! Also sort of odd how Dinky does not have wings yet both her parents do......in this story I HATE Soarin, but maybe in any other he is not so bad......you don't forgive someone if they just get up and leave you....at least that;s the way I look at it......damn, poor Dinky and Derpy, the bastard......anyway......

Derpy....is BOSS!!!

[LoLCyprus]

808091 First off, Derpy forgave him because he said sorry. She was going to have him back anyway, because love conquers all.
Secondly, just because Derpy and Soarin are pegasi, doesn't mean that Dinky has to be a pegasus as well. Besides, I'll explain that later.
Finally, Rainbow Dash is not a lesbian! Sure, most of the stories that she is in, she's been shipped with another mare, but really? The only ponies with a confirmed sexuality are Rarity, who was head over hooves in love with Prince Blueblood, and Shining Armor and Cadence. Honestly, Rainbow Dash can be what ever sexuality the author wants her to be. I haven't really revealed what sexuality she is, and I won't in this story.
And yes, I know that in the beta version of this chapter, I said that Rainbow wanted a date with Spitfire, but that doesn't really confirm anything. She could be bi.
I just love the Spit/Dash pairing ^.^

[LoLCyprus]

808100 RD I'll save for a later story. She's just a supporting character in this.

[LoLCyprus]

810572 Well, I had to change a few things to make it right. Since this was originally a one-shot, I had to change chapter 1 quite a bit to get it how I wanted it. Now, I have it how I want it, and it won't be changing again.

[LoLCyprus]

811046 Everyone has differing opinions. I now realise that a lot of people who read this end up hating Soarin in it. Personally, I thought it was really sweet when I was writing it, but again, everyone has differing opinions. 10 years is a long time, sure, but would you really pass up the oppertunity to start again with your one true love?

[Inferno demon Dash]

811554 I agree with you there, and I know that every has their own sense of reason but in all honestly, yes....if they leave you and steal yor heart then they are not worth having around or even thinking or dreaming about, harsh yes, but very true and honest....I enjoy your work, but that is my own view on the matter.

[Pony 254326]

I guess I'll throw my own hat into the ring as well.

Soarin felt an extreme amount of guilt, an internal conflict. It felt as though his own actions harmed his true love and couldn't overcome that obstacle of distrust with himself. So at this point it's really more of what Soarin felt than how quickly Ditzy recovered her love, because it was never lost in the first place. He didn't truly abandon her, in the whole view, but he also abandoned himself once he realized he couldn't live with himself knowing that everyday he would be reminded of his mistake that would change Ditzy's life forever.

He couldn't have known about the pregnancy, so he honestly can't be blamed for that at all, he only assumed that Ditzy hated him for letting that event happen to her, so he figured that she would want him to leave. This goes to show how much he underestimated her love.

Love is powerful, and in this way, now that it has been edited, it makes it a bit more palpable and believable that they still share the same fondness they did all that time ago.

Just my opinion, and that's a fact.

[Sky Cloud]

just as good as the first

[D48]

This was fantastic, and I am very much looking forwards to more.