I'm sorry · 3:40am Apr 27th, 2022
It seems I owe you all an apology, and I'm sorry.
I've been kinda scarce lately, I've neglected my read later list and my writing, and worst of all, I've neglected my real friends and fellow users of fimfic, you see I kinda got involved with a girl...
Or at least I thought I was involved with a girl, And I was ashamed of what she might think of me if she were to discover that I belong to the perverse faction of a fandom built around a cartoon show marketed towards little girls, i was mortified that she might think i was some kind of creepy weirdo. So I dug a deep fucking hole and buried every mlp aspect of my life in the very bottom of that hole in a desperate attempt to appear somewhat, kinda, almost normal-ish.
Things were going great for a while, I was brushing my teeth and making sure I had minty fresh breath at all times, I started eating right and lost almost ten pounds and I even started working out again, I dressed nice (not like 'suit and tie' nice but at least no ripped jeans or stained up t-shirt's) There was lots of eye contact, subtle flirting (or at least I thought we were flirting) and she was constantly inviting me to watch her kid's gymnastics practice.
Maybe she played me, or maybe she was leaving subtle openings the whole time for me to swoop in and seal the deal that I was just to dense to notice... But i guess i blew it, cause she got back together with her abusive ex husband (which was actually her husband the whole time, cause they never realy got divorced in the first place) and now I'm just some guy that she knows.
I turned my back on all my friends, cut ties with all of them, just so I could chase some woman who would drop me like a hot potato and run back to her abusive ex. Hands down the shitiest thing I've ever done and I'm sorry.
Maybe you can forgive me
maybe you can't
maybe I don't deserve to be forgiven
maybe nobody gives a crap.
Damn, sorry to hear that that happened to you. You shoiuld feel ashamed for neglecting your friends and family, but you shouldn’t feel ashamed for trying to take the next step in your life. You just happened to have had bad luck with that kind of woman that just wants attention separate from her shitty relationship, if what she told you was the truth about her husband being abusive, she might have been lying about that.
I’m so sorry to hear all that happened I don’t and I know I am a little late to say this
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Meh, im probably a better person now after the whole experience, but it's good to hear somebody cares, thank you.
Man, you dodged a bullet. Congrats! Count your blessings.
Don't be so dramatic. Stuff happens. What's done is done. Back to ponies it is!