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  • 20 weeks
    Out of estrogen!

    Yeah, the truth is, my mind isn't quite right, right now, because I had to stop taking my usual high doses of estrogen that help me... As such, I have an awful creative block. In the meantime, I've been doing a lot of yoga, meditation, and a little bit of getting high too, if I'm being honest. But fear not, for help is on the way! I've solved my insurance dilemma and early next year, I should be

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  • 47 weeks
    I think I know the real reason?

    I've been doing a lot of thinking about this... I was married for six years and I've had many relationships with people of both genders before and afterward... However, for some reason, I can no longer remember anything good about my past relationships? I don't believe it's really my fault, but for whatever reason, I feel like something was taken from me? Something precious? Now, I'm not a

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  • 48 weeks
    Something happened earlier...

    Hello dear blog! Sure has been awhile! Well, a 19-year-old brony has been reading my stories for YouTube lately and my channel here has gained some popularity because of that. But that's not the biggest part of it... Well, he told me earlier that my Filly Eyes story got him to think that maybe not everyone is awful... The story written by me, a hardcore misanthrope, somehow gave off that

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  • 63 weeks
    Cyber-Scootaloo and Cyber-Twilight

    So out of nowhere, I started writing a Fallout Equestria story yesterday! It's from the first-person perspective of a cyborg... Her name is Scootaloo and she was mortally injured in an accident and cryogenically frozen... Later, she was thawed and rebuilt as a cyborg to save her life! She is built for battle. Her titanium alloy carapace was made to sustain punishment and her metal legs are also

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  • 66 weeks
    The Changeling Metaphor

    A changeling is a creature that feeds off love. They are shapeshifters who take different forms in order to drain others of their love. That's an apt metaphor for the way I used to be when I was pretending to be male. I felt like I had to be this "person" that they wanted me to be, or I would lose their love... And the truly messed up thing is, I was right. However, they're all gone by this stage

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Mar
14th
2022

The Schism: Enter Jessi Trotsky · 6:01pm Mar 14th, 2022

Scootaloo’s ghost represents the old me and she carries the guilt and shame of Apple Bloom’s (my mother’s) death in the form of the chicken costume she’s currently doomed to wear. Jessi Trotsky represents the new me and that’s why it’s important that she be a filly. She’s very bright and sensitive and has a lot of love to give to the world, but she has no idea how to go about that… She’s very quirky and witty, but she doesn’t like or trust most ponies. She’s a green unicorn filly with a mid-length wavy grayish-white mane and tail and dark orange eyes.

It's important that I differentiate the two as I'm leaving that part of my life behind, at this point. I'm moving forward and while it's necessary that I help Scootaloo deal with these issues, it's equally important that I keep my eyes forward. I need to cast off the old feelings of the past if I'm to proceed in my life and the end of this story will be Scootaloo's absolution and final acceptance of what happened. It doesn't matter if it's 2000 years as in her case or a mere 17, like in mine. This still needs to happen and I recognize this...

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