Life Stuff Update · 1:07am Oct 23rd, 2021
Almost a month ago, I said that I needed some time to get myself together and that I would likely be posting again by the end of October. But that's not happening. Unfortunately, I'm not really all that far from where I left off because forming better, more positive habits is damn hard. Because of my negative habits like browsing stuff I don't actually need to browse, all those memes and videos and all that crap that goes on and on, I don't feel like doing anything else. Sure, I've actually managed to write something, but... that was one full chapter. I do have a few hundred words for other stories scattered here and there, but I'm not yet ready to resume posting anything.
So yeah, I'll need a bit more time. I've no idea how much, to be honest. Hopefully, I'll be fine in a month, but maybe it would last all the way into the beginning of 2022. I've no way to tell and, well, I can't get professional help for this because of my lack of money. And, as I said before, therapy and all that stuff isn't all that great in Russia last I heard. So, I'm still on my own.
Thankfully, I don't have that kind of depression where I want to die. A lot of you know I've attempted suicide a couple years back, but I assure you I'm nowhere near that point now. I know I'm not fine, but I'm not suicidal, and I don't feel depressed in a "this world is shit, I don't want to be in it" way anymore. Well, the world is shit, that hasn't changed (hello covid and quality of life that worsened since 2019), and I'd rather be in a better place - preferably some sort of paradise I made up in my head - but I don't want to actually kill myself, that's absolutely certain. I'm not delusional, psychotic, or detached from reality in any way.
I hope you all are fine wherever you are even with how things are going right now. Being low energy is no fun and I don't wish that on anyone.
Hey, speaking of. I'm sorry I havent been more active in the discord. Changed jobs and havent had much time. I usually hit the bed and wake to go to work again. not enough energy to do much else.
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Yeah, I can imagine having a job sucks. Whoever thought working 8 hours a day or more is fine and dandy needs to be kicked in the crotch.
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Wasnt it Henry Ford who stepped it down from 7 days a week to five? I'm fairly sure he introduced 8 hour work shifts as well.
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I think so. Still, 8 hours a day is a third of an entire day, and another third of it is sleeping. 8 hours left - if you don't account for commute and other boring stuff - is not enough to really relax. Same with having only two days a week free.
Yes, it was H.Ford who first introduced the five-day, eight-hour work week, based on SCIENCE. Instead of 7 day 12-hour one. Puts things into perspective, ain't it?
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True, but it still wasn't enough, as modern understanding of things shows. I mean, science back then wasn't unfriendly towards stuff like eugenics and some very questionable practices in the area of psychology.