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Average brony obsessing over the main cast with an unhealthy desire to see them in a dark fantasy setting.

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  • 9 weeks
    A reflection: Dawn of the Deep Soul

    Made in Abyss has always been something that stood out in my mind as a fantasy world I love to see, wish could've been mine, but know I could have never been the author of.

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  • 16 weeks
    The End of Evangelion, but for real this time.

    Well. I just watched the final Evangelion rebuild movie, 3.0+1.0: Thrice upon a time. In a way it felt like when I finished Super. An end to a project that had gone on far too long, but was satisfying in that it was finished and it was finished in the way I wanted it to be finished.

    Visuals - 10/10

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  • 32 weeks
    The end to an era

    Well, that's it. All she wrote. The story to a close. The end of the end. The tale of the Great Pretender is complete.

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  • 36 weeks
    Extension and Recovery

    So, Just Around the Corner is out now, and as such, I've decided to split the final chapter of Super in an effort to push myself to actually get the damn thing done. You can now read the first half of it, titled 'Finale IX: Vengeance' and I'm hoping to get the next half out next week now that I've: recovered from whatever

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  • 38 weeks
    This time, it was only kinda my fault.

    :ajsleepy: If you've been paying attention, you might notice that Super is still incomplete. There are multiple reasons for this.

    1) I lost an entire day's worth of work on it. It didn't save, it never auto saved during the multiple hours I worked on it, or whatever, that whole day was just gone when I went to work on it the next day.

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A reflection: Dawn of the Deep Soul · 9:13pm October 3rd

Made in Abyss has always been something that stood out in my mind as a fantasy world I love to see, wish could've been mine, but know I could have never been the author of.

It's such a unique, raw, wild idea unto itself that I've always wondered if I was capable of writing something like that. Building a world of wonder, a grand place mysterious and deep, complex and otherworldly without being too unimaginable.

But, the thing about Made in Abyss is that: it's really not about that otherworldly world.

There are stories about character, stories about settings, stories about conflicts and the people involved with them, but at the heart of it all is what lies at the depths of the abyss. Humanity.

How far can people go? How far will people go? If one will can push beyond all obstacles, then what could possibly stop it? Nothing you cannot sacrifice for your dreams, nothing that ties or binds you to this world, nothing to keep you down like even gravity itself. And all the while, somehow, you still have an understanding of things. The way people work. The way emotions bind, the way the heart aches and bleeds.

How is it one can hold people dear and toss them aside at the same time? Perhaps, that's a limit on my imagination. I empathize with my characters too easily. I imagine them as real people, imagine what they might feel, imagine what tortures and traumas would do to them.

As much as I love Made in Abyss for the very nature of the work, I can't help but also be disgusted by it. Cutting and tearing and removing anything unnecessary—I just don't have it in me. I could never be Akihito Tsukushi, but I'm also not him. And for that, I'm glad.

Maybe one day, my heart won't be so malleable. I won't be so easily swayed by things that don't exist, I won't feel for figments of another imagination, or possibly even those of my own. But for now, as I am what I am and there's no changing that, I'll stand by on the sidelines to watch as we plunder deeper into the depths of the abyss.

It was there in the beginning, you know.
Turning back was never an option.

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