I'm stressed

You know, that blog post title given everything shitty going on in other peoples' lives probably sounds really whiny, but I really gotta vent a little and I'm too lazy to get out my phone to text my friends. Feel free to leave if you don't wanna hear a teenager complaining about life being hard. I wouldn't blame you.

First of all, wow, first real blog about me in a REALLYYYY long time, I know. Sorry. High school may not be the most time consuming thing out there, but given my relatively low workload tolerance, it's really pushed my limits these past few years. This has also affected the amount I push things out like reviews and chapters (which is probably obvious). There's just so much I always have on my to do list that it gets overwhelming and I often do nothing. I always feel like I should be studying, talking to people, making reviews, writing chapters, catching up with shows, working on my novel, doing homework, reading, working on my writing for my dream job of being a writer, and working on that very belated birthday present I'm supposed to be doing for my friend. It's a lot.

I know that I should just do a little at a time so that it's manageable, but I'm like, far too lazy for my own good. And with university coming up in a year and a half, I'm starting to feel pressure about things even more. What if I can't get into the university I want to? Even if I do, is that what I want? Because that's a lot more work than I already have which stresses me out, plus I heard the mental health services there suck. Which sucks. And even if I do, with only my dream job of writing which is very difficult and a possible career path of being a psychologist as backup which I'm not very prepared for, how am I gonna do in life? Am I gonna just go through all these years with honors just to end up working a dead-end job at a restaurant? And the most pressing question of all, am I ever gonna get a girlfriend?

Ok, that last part was a bit of a joke (well sorta), but anyways, the point is that a lot is going on in my life whether externally or internally at basically all times and I don't feel like I can keep up with it. I'm short circuiting. To be a memer, I guess I would say I'm built different. But in a negative connotation this time. So yeah. Mini rant over. You may move on with your life as I skip my math homework again and go to sleep.