Trixie Interviews: Demons Are Not Always the Evil Ones · 3:00pm Nov 10th, 2020
I guess I'll recap on all this wonderful project has done for me now? Seems appropriate since I'm pretty much done and the rest is up to my editor huh? I know how it ends now, but you'll need to wait for that... But after the fact, I wonder where I am now? Well, Trixie Interviews showed me that I not only have a talent for writing as I get better and better, but I actually enjoy doing it! Through ponies, this adorable little best filly specifically, I realized that I actually enjoy telling these stories and it gave me a wonderful hobby! Uh, well it's better than snorting opioids and chasing it with high gravity malt liquor I suppose? Yeah, I don't really do that anymore!
It also helped me see the death of my parents in a clearer light... Now, to be honest, my father had betrayed my trust and fucked me over so many times that by the time he actually did die, I didn't really care! I simply drank a beer to his memory among many more and got on with my life... But losing my mother 15 years ago was the most painful thing I've ever had to do... Over the course of about 5 months, I had to watch the woman I cared about most die a slow painful death of brain cancer and that part scarred me deeply... To be honest, when Cozy cried at her parent's burnt out cottage back in chapter 4, I cried too... Because I know what that cottage really represents!
And later, it helped me conquer some of my anxieties about going out into the world. I'm a transgender shut-in you see and while I spend most of my time in this house, I'm generally nervous and unsure about travelling in the outside world these days. Truth be told, I just don't feel safe! And as I watched Cozy Glow conquer her fears and anxieties with the help of her friends, it kinda makes me see things in another way? I mean, what if the biggest problems are in my head? (Cozy has that realization in chapter 11.)
Between those things and probably others, there's a good reason Cozy Glow is now considered "best filly" to me. Her blank canvas gave me exactly what I needed to paint my own pictures with my words. She allowed me to explore different things and ideas and will likely continue to do so in the next project. I gave her true friendship and only now finally can little Cozy see what magic truly is!
PS: I couldn't help but notice that the manipulation I employ with Cozy Glow is far more subtle than what we saw in the show? Just an observation!
