May
8th
2020
Me when I'm exhausted / stressed · 12:00pm May 8th, 2020
- I hardly talk.
- When I do talk, I can't stop saying the word 'Fuck' or 'Fucking' in my sentences.
- I can't be bothered to wash my hair, even if it's already messy.
- I can't be bothered to react to other people when they say something to me. I won't even look up.
- I can't be bothered to find the energy to think clearly or to speak up when I do choose to talk.
- I constantly nod off and often pass out, only to hit my head on my desk and wake up again.
- I feel like doing stuff at the same time I have no energy to do it, which annoys me.
- My thoughts turn dark.
- All of my suppressed / pent-up emotions I've kept at bay for years flood in and ruin my mind and linger for hours or days later.
- All I can think about is lingering sadness, past and present.
- I sit in a dark room, curtains closed and my ears completely concealed with headphones while listening to music to chill out.
- I get annoyed a lot easier than normal. (It usually takes some doing. An angry me isn't a common occurrence. In fact, it's extremely rare!)
- I hate myself.
- I reminisce about good times, but get sad when I realise there are very few of said good times.
- I just want to sleep but never can.
- Heavy, overbearing anxiety sets in.
- I probably look as insane as I feel.
- I'm allergic to myself.
A lack a sleep can do funny things like that to you.
I can get a few of those things as well. I'm sorry it gets to you like this friend
5258353
I'm there right now. I dunno. Think I'm bored more than anything. Bored and sad. At this point, it's hard to define one from the other.
5258274
And a lot more. Having issues with insomnia since childhood doesn't do you any favours, either. You can't sleep when you want but instead sleep when you shouldn't. A functioning, healthy body clock isn't a thing in my world.
5280382
Need some cheering up?
5280812
I think I do, yes, pretty desperately. Although I'm unsure if anything will work on me. I hardly feel anything anymore enough to give a reaction, but you're welcome to try.
5280892
Well I am here for you, and I can try and help however you would like *hugs*