Journal Entry - Volume 11 - Chapter 12 · 2:11am Oct 6th, 2019
Status Report,
I… I don’t know what came over me! My feelings… my actions… my SHAME!!! For some reason I… I slept with HIM!!! Several of the others banged on the door to use the restroom. But I need to stay in here until I feel clean again! The shower didn’t even BEGIN to wash away my recent actions from my memory! No matter how hard I scrub! This is all Arc’s fault! I hate his looks! I hate his stench! And I hate his existence!!!
However… through all that… through the entire ordeal… I remained conscious of what I was doing. There are so many things I wanted so badly back then that I THANKFULLY didn’t get! For all his undesirable qualities, Arc did not at any time harm me, attempt to kill me, or sexually violate me! He… he fed and cared for me when I couldn’t even think straight! Very noble of him. I think any other stallion would have at least TRIED to take advantage of the situation! A mare throws herself at somepony and they react! Or at least they’re SUPPOSED to! I just don’t…
Cerulean Skies… I… I think I’m beginning to understand what you saw in him…
Don’t take advantage of others who aren’t in their right minds. You wouldn’t want them to do the same to you.
