Journal Entry - Volume 4 - Chapter 8

Dear Diary,

Well... Arc fell over again! I had to help him to bed! That idiot keeps using all his energy casting magic! I TOLD him his report could have waited until tomorrow morning, but no, he just HAD to tell the princesses everything tonight! I mean... I know it's important and all, but... but he need to learn how to budget his energies! One of these days, he's going to pass out and I'm not going to be there to help him!!!

Arc... he... he just tries so hard to help everyone! While that's certainly not a bad thing in and of itself, his inability to take care of himself is really getting on my nerves! That dumb oaf! Can't he see how much I worry about him?! Can't he feel when he needs rest?! Can't he... he... ARGH!!! He's driving me CRAZY!!!

When I saw what happened in Vanhoover... why... why didn't I go with him?! I mean... I figured he couldn't get into too much trouble at an orphanage! Was I ever wrong! I came so close to losing him! As I write this, he's sleeping soundly next to me. Arc's breathing... the sound of it is really helping me calm down! Just... just knowing he's still alive and all

Diary... I've never admitted this to anyone. Not even myself, but... it wasn't until just this moment that I realized I... I wanted... I... I don't know. I don't know how to say it! What do I really want?! A friend? Someone to care for me and I for them? Someone that I can talk to and get honest advice from? A... a mate?! Yes, that's what I want! A mate! He has to be strong, kind, brave, loving, smart, funny, loyal... good looking...

I... I think I know WHAT I want. Or more accurately, who. It's just... I don't know why I keep thinking about this, when I already know what can't be... can't be!!! Is it REALLY love I feel for Arc? Or is it just... just my dragon hormones going crazy! Either way, I want to see this through to the end. I... I HAVE TO!

Taking care of others is all well and good, but don't forget to take care of yourself!