Depression, as described by FireRain · 11:45pm Jun 13th, 2019
Too busy feeling dead inside to be bothered to acknowledge anything. Everything feels insignificant, things I once loved and cared about, hobbies, interests, emotions, reactions...they all feel equally as meaningless. Laughing and trying to remember what having a sense of humour is like is like taking an ice bath. Self-expression gets harder and near to difficult the longer the negativity is present, and it slowly consumes what is left of the person it holds as a host. It swallows feelings, hopes and dreams, crushes you. Eats you until nothing's left. You're a shell. Less than that - a blank canvas. A brush without paint.
No light exists, only darkness. No fun and games, no excitement or longing for anything in particular, no hope for a better tomorrow or a good night. Sleep is all you think about. It's dominant above all else, so strong that you're stuck on the fence between wanting to die so you can sleep and finding the will to continue. It's like a cancer, just without any part that can be cut out physically to prevent it from spreading.
It doesn't care who you are or what you do, it doesn't have a need to discriminate or to separate the good from the bad, it doesn't know spite or anything to make it think twice about possessing you. It's taken many good people, of which has left gaping holes in the hearts of many. It punches holes in the world that can't be filled, and it tears people apart, changes them for the worse. It knows no bounds and has no restraint.
Unfortunately, it's everywhere and nobody deserves it, but it exists and it is very real. Nobody should suffer from it or be introduced to it, but they find it somewhere down the line. It opens a swelling, black pit of dread, angst, fear, uncertainty, loss and negativity that sucks the life out of you, and it often ends in one taking their life. It's rare for a person to snap out of it and find happiness again, and, if you are one of those people, you're luckier than a cancer survivor.
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- FireRain
(Shut the door on your way out.)
That's pretty deep thanks for sharing your take on depression. Just don't forget that talking to a friend or family member can help ease your mind a little.
5074005
Talking can only do so much, man. It's not a cure; it's a coping mechanism. It only buys time and lowers the chance of any self-inflicted heartache. But it doesn't always work.
There's no cure for it.
I say:
Depression doesn't make one want to sleep, rather It's more about not wanting to be awake (conscious). The only desire left is a desire to not exist.
I've found that thinking up stories allows me to feel some emotions though my characters, if only a tiny bit, but it's something.
Life itself is like being the captain of a merchant ship back in ancient times. Sometimes, you're lucky and have a good run. And other times, you don't. Depression is like unknowingly sailing your ship into the gale of a storm, only to have said storm encompass you under its darkness. Making every task, that was simple in normal sailing conditions, an absolute battle for survival. Over time, and with enough hard work, and luck. Your ship will make it to the other side, battered and beaten, but able to see a lovely day once more. But for others, those unfortunate few for whom the storm claims victim. Get dragged down to be swallowed by the sea. Never to be seen again.
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Yes, and by 'not exist', it's essentially the same as wanting to be dead and no longer amongst the living where pain is a constant presence. It's only a shame the world shows no signs of changing for the better. We'd all get along so much better and happier if people weren't so arrogant and at each other's throats all the time.
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Amen, dear brother. Scars will remain, both mental and physically after such a dreadful debacle. Finding light where darkness reigns is near to impossible for most, but, for those that do find it, I sincerely think they are the luckiest humans on the planet. They were given a second wind to turn things around.
Depression isn't something that most can best and triumph. But one can suppress it with friends and family by their side. They can get through it and put it in a cage. We're always here to help you put your depression in its place should the need arise