Crushed Dreams = Lack Of Motivation · 12:03am May 19th, 2019
So, I'm a simple man. There isn't much I want or expect out of life. I just take it as it comes. That being said, there is one thing I've wanted to experience before I die or get too old to do so. This is taking a girl to BronyCon. I thought it'd be amazing to go on an 8 hour road trip together, share a hotel room, and attend the convention as a couple. Sadly, as everyone should know by now, BronyCon 2019 is said to be the final BronyCon. And, I doubt I'm going to find a pegasister near me to bring to the Con between now and August.
This has affected me more than I wanted as my motivation to do anything is nearly gone. I've actually had thoughts of quitting writing, cancelling my games, ignoring my YouTube channel, and leaving the fandom. I don't want this as I love this fandom so I'll be watching and reacting to the rest of Season 9 in hopes that it raises my spirits.
About my fics, I'm currently focusing on The Big One: Cadance and Pink, both of which are, for me, emotionally difficult to write as The Big One is one big sex scene and the scene I'm writing for Pink is also a sexually intimate scene. But, I'm powering through it for y'all since I know I've had you waiting long enough for new content.
I still have a very small amount of motivation left so I will still be trying my best to write but I'm not sure what's going to happen after BronyCon. I'm not looking for drama or pity. I just want to let you all know what's going on and why I may suddenly disappear for a while. Though, if I do end up taking a very long break, I will let you know via blog post.
Here's hoping Season 9 can keep me going /)
I hope things turn out ok for you
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it's all good bruh, i'm certain there are many others who feel the same, with the knowledge of the coming finale, i'll be rooting for ya, and remember, the end aint always the end.
I feel your pain all too well, brother.
Damn, I hate to hear that, especially from one of my favorite authors. I just now realized i forgot to follow you lol. Anyway, from a fellow man who's also suffering from motivation issues as well as severe depression, my advice is to take things as they come. Live life day by day, and find happiness wherever you can. Here's to hangin in there, and kickin life in the balls.