Living the Post Game · 10:02pm Nov 4th, 2018

I know that no one is going to believe me at this point. But I am really back this time. I even have half a story written that I promise I will finish.

So much has happened in the past year and a half, but I finally feel stable. A little over two years ago I met a great man, and he's helped me out so much. We started dating, and now we've been living together for a year and a half. He's made me more stable and happy than I've ever been. Last year I graduated college, becoming the first person in my family to do so. I even graduated on time with a good GPA and a good job lined up. I've already gotten recognition at work more than I ever thought I would. People are saying great things about me.

Graduating high school was a really big deal to everyone in my family. But, between moving off to college, getting my degree, and not moving back home I've actually lost most of the relationships I had with family and friends. Now I have my parents, my two best friends, my boyfriend and his friends. But, I'm learning that is okay.

The story that I'm writing currently is going to be pretty obviously inspired by my current life situation. I'm not happy with it, but writing helps.

The point of this whole blog is that I've finally realized something: I'm living life like I'm in the post game.

I feel like I've accomplished every goal I set. I know it seems silly and like I'm too young to feel that way, but I do.
If my life were Pokemon Gold, High school was my Elite Four,and college felt like going all the way through Kanto afterwords.
I mentioned this to some people at work, and they laughed at me. They didn't contest my idea. I never wanted kids or a spouse. My only goals in life were high school, drivers license, car, and a decent job. Bachelor's degree was extra. I'm not saying any of those things were easy, or that I'm some amazing person for doing them. I just don't really have any good goals left. I'm still not sure what that means, but I'm not going through life searching for meaning.

This was a good realization for me though. Instead of moping around, sad and anxious, I can look at life like a challenge. Try to 100% my personal ability. I hope this whole thing doesn't sound like some naive rambling of a young person, but this thought, however silly it may seem, has really helped me. I'm glad to be back.