Update on how I'm feeling · 6:29am Nov 4th, 2018
I really wish there was a word for this, but I'm still terrified and extremely depressed and yet I'm cold and empty. Going to ask my psychiatrist if she thinks I may have started to develop PTSD. I saw his soul leave his body. That stays with you.
I'm nervous about the memorial service on Tuesday because I'll be reciting a poem I wrote and I'm scared I'll break down and cry.
Be strong, friend.