A personal update, I guess · 3:45am Sep 29th, 2018
So in my last blog post that I did back in August said I had a job lined up so I can make money and all that sexy jazz. WELP. I never got the call. Then I applied at a gas station/convenience store attached to a grocery store. Never got a call. There are people who think I haven't been trying to get a job. I have been, as well as someone who is awkward as fuck can, that is. It just seems that people don't want to take someone who has been flagged for gross misconduct by their previous employer, despite that was far from the situation and all the managers know that, but the Market Manager at Walmart who put down the order doesn't care. He probably stopped reading the report after "Threat" and ordered my Termination. I am thinking about attempting to reapply since there is a good chance that I can get rehired since most management liked me and thought my whole firing situation was bullshit. But who the fuck knows. On another note, Minnesota is getting it's first frost tonight, basically meaning ground temp will be below 32 degrees for the night and into the morning. I am hopefully going to learn to parallel park soon so I can fucking get my drivers license and I can maybe try and get a driving job. Probably not as a truck driver and def not as the guys who drive the train conductors around from place to place.
So moving on from my ranting about my unemployment, I haven't really written anything since the last time Ap-parent Trap got updated. I wrote a couple paragraphs for the next chapter (12, I think?) and I had an idea for maybe a one shot or full length story, but then I lost steam on it. My inspiration to write has been sporadic for years now, but my slight depression from my unemployment doesn't help. I'll go a few days being busy around the house and shit, then one day my dad will remind me I'm fucking broke and I need a job because he thinks he is helpful, or I just have one of those days where I find myself with nothing to do and not much motivation to do anything. Not to play games, do things around the house, etc. Then I try to talk to the GF, but she is normally working a bunch, which is opposite to when we first started dating almost 4 years ago. I was the one working all the time and trying to make time for her, and now she's the one that has to make time for me. It fucking sucks. Point is, depression kinda sucks. Not saying it because I want attention and everything, or that I am saying I'm special, since there are people who would go around saying they are depressed and not even be but say it because they want the sympathy. I am saying it just to state how I've been feeling.
I might try and write, but don't expect much. EoP has had no new ideas for months, maybe almost a year because my sense of time is non-existent, and AT is slow going and I am honestly running out of ideas.
This sounds like my exact situation right now. I've been trying to get a job for three months now. My step-sister just got a job after two weeks -- don't ask me how that works, I can't tell you. I have only been able to write in small paragraphs, even though I have all these ideas. It's annoying as hell.
I found it harder to get a job than to actually work a job. Spending 30 to 40 hours a week sending out resumes, calling places, scheduling interviews, and most of the time it was like a black hole with no response ever returned.
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I've been looking for 7 months now. Actually GETTING a job is DEFINITELY harder than keeping one.
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I feel your pain. I crie evertim.
Flagged by a previous employer? ALL they can legally say is you worked for them. anything else is against the law as far as Im away of.