Shocking News · 5:00am Jul 14th, 2018
I don't even know how to put this into words, but, here I go.
Not even a day after my last blog post here, I got the news that my great grandma had died. Don't know how she died yet, but it was shocking nonetheless to read at midnight. It was my great grandma on my step-dad's side of the family, so I hardly new her and I only met her once, but it was just devastating to hear. This is one of those things that you just don't expect to hear until you're hearing it in the moment. It's one of those things that opens up your eyes and makes you think for a while. Makes you wonder what you could've done differently. Makes you wonder what words you had left unsaid or the moments you may now regret. I regret not getting to know her better, and I just don't know how to express how I feel right now because of that. Personally, I took it hard at first because of what I regret, then suddenly I felt fine and I don't know what's wrong with me for accepting it as fact so fast. It's just weird, you know? Is it a sad thing or just the regular news at this point? I hate myself for not knowing that.
Anyways, sorry to bring some more sad/not necessary news into your feed, it's probably something I should just leave unsaid, let it be just a personal thing to deal with, but I just needed somewhere to 'talk' about it since I don't know how to talk about it with my family. I'm trying though. And I don't even know how to respond to people on the internet for god's sake! I'm horrible at conversation!
Sorry again for the sad news again, I'm also getting some writing in every day at work for the next chapter and I feel like it would be awkward to make a new sudden post to cover this post just to inform you guys of that. Don't even know if you guys will see this part in particular. Also, Knives, like I said I don't know how to respond to people even if my life depended on it, but thanks for just commenting on that last post. Good night and good day or whatever time it is, have a good one guys.
(I'll be more active with less bad news, I swear)
I feel you man, hope you feel better soon. <:(