Life, am I right?

I just... I just thought I'd write this. This might end up being a long blog, but oh well. Let's begin.

I never finish anything. Well, almost anything that is. I have 4 complete stories, so I guess that's something, right? No? I have three more stories coming at some point, too. I'm just not able to tell you when is that going to happen exactly. Besides, I'm always afraid of how people will react to my stories. (And yet, I went and wrote a clop fic...) For example, I'm extremely nervous about using certain characters. You see, I got into this fandom about two years ago and I have my own thoughts about everything. I haven't read that many older stories to get the general idea of some popular characters. But that's not the only reason I'm not publishing new stories. I simply feel I'm not good enough. No matter what. Nothing I do pleases me enough to publish it.

People often ask each other that; who are you writing for? I am mostly writing to myself. That said, my dearest wish is that whoever reads my stories, is going to enjoy them one way or another. Even if they don't comment, or leave any other mark than a count on views, I wish they enjoyed whatever I offered to them. Those are the two reasons why I write. To enjoy this wonderful show and share it with everybody.

One of my biggest problems is that I don't plan much ahead, and even if I do, I will most likely not follow that plan. It's so much like in my life. I never follow through anything. I'm currently looking for a new apartment, a cheaper one. To say I'm terrified would be a huge understatement. I made an offer of one place, and they said me I could get it if I wanted. But do you know what I did? I jammed. That is not to say I was all that happy with the place. I had my "reasons." My current place is a little bit better, but it's also more expensive. I'm not ready to give up the things I have. I'm afraid of changes. But honestly, who isn't? If I'm looking for a new home, it should feel like home. It just... didn't have that feeling. Anyway, that's enough about that.

The two stories I'm currently focusing on, are the Pokémon crossover and this one mystery story, going by the name: Project Ghost - The Mystery of the Dead Stallion. I have been writing both of them recently. Right now, Project Ghost has the higher priority over the other and I have 4 and a half chapters ready to be edited. The Pokémon crossover is still at the first chapter. The third one I was writing a long time ago, was this PinkieShy fic. I really wanted to continue it and I will continue it at some point. It just needs a lot of work. It was my very first fic that I ever started writing so it's pretty bad.

So, where to go from here? What would you suggest? Should I just publish everything half done and finish them later? That way I could at least have a chance to see what people think about them. Or should I just take it slow, take my time and inch my way toward finishing them, even if it took a very long time? I'm not trying to create a flawless masterpiece that gains nothing but praises anyway. I just want to write something, share it, get a comment or two and sigh from the relief. That Feeling when you post a new story. You got something done. It's yours and it's out there. It might get a like or two, maybe even a comment. It's the little things that make me happy - very, very happy.