The reason might be leaving soon. · 1:26am Jan 17th, 2018
If you don't care, just ignore this blog.
I don't know why this happens, but whenever I come onto this site it makes me depressed. Everything I had made. All the friends I had before my ban are mostly gone. I don't really like to write anymore and I have zero self confidence. I constantly wonder, "Why should I stay? All this site has ever brought me was problems. Would it have been better off if I had never been here?" So many of my friends have left this site. My best friend- back before my ban- is gone and we never talk anymore. She acts like a whole different person. I feel like everyone else is changing for the better... And I am still trying to hold onto my past. I know it's gone, I know it's never coming back. I know that by this point it is causing me great pain to see what this site has become. This is happening in my life too. My friends have moved on and they no longer spend any time with me. I barely talk to anyone anymore and just blame my school work for it. My friends are all forever changed whilst I still stand where I have always been. I cling onto the past almost like I feel it's going to change something. That maybe I can be happy again... Maybe I can have my friends back...
But I know that isn't true. Deep down inside me, I know that I am just hurting myself more. But something doesn't want to let go. Something still holds on to these things that I wish I could just forget about. My friends, my happiness and my ambition to write. I used to try to help people who were depressed, I tried to make them feel better. I used words I thought would work. But now when I try to use them on myself... They go in one ear and out the other...
Whatever you do, good luck
You are not alone.
Do whatever is comfortable for you, but don't let that emptiness drain you out
dude it sucks ik if you need anyone to talk to just pm me
you still have friends here though don't you? If you do decide to go though, take care of yourself.
You still have friends, man. Trust me, there's still people who care about you