2017 in review · 9:19pm Dec 31st, 2017
January
Trump became president. ok.
Already generally not looking forward to much else
February
Avoided some overly clingy girls in gym.
Fell into a prank set up to give one of the aforementioned girls a gift without realizing it
Ended up being shipped for the rest of the school year
March
Robotics competition, not much else besides that.
April
Wrapping up robotics competition with my team in 4th place and unable to make it to nationals because of that.
Beginning to see the first hints of end-of-year review
Ended Lab Horse, began writing Space Horse.
May
End of year tests every week. Writing progress generally slows down.
Summer reading homework
June-July
Summer Break, being away from friends in a way makes me clingy for attention, leading to some horrible mistakes that literally destroyed a friendship as of the beginning of December. Friend simply responds by coming out first as lesbian, then wanting to be trans.
Summer reading homework
Started writing Equestrian Human
August
School starts back up, I'm completely oblivious to what I've done because its effects haven't quite caught up to me yet.
Used the tried-and-true method of avoiding large crowds
Learned that one of my friends got a girlfriend, confirming her claims that she wants to be a guy.
September
The first hints of the Summer Mistake begin to show, starting with being unexpectedly blocked across all forms of communication with the friend I ended up hurting emotionally over the summer.
This happened literally on the day of my birthday party, and my other friends gave the explanation that the friend who blocked me had an overly obsessed girlfriend who was blocking all the contacts. I believed them at the time.
Turned 16 years old.
October
I get unblocked for all but a week, but during that time begin to have suspicions that something was being covered up.
I get blocked again completely unexpectedly between classes.
November
1-year anniversary of Lab Horse series.
I begin to piece together events that occured over the summer and realize what I might've done.
December
Unblocked one last time, suspicions confirmed, as I am only able to communicate with friend through my sister, who then tells my friend's girlfriend, who tells my friend, to says in return that I shouldn't talk to them anymore.
I learn that I've deeply hurt my friend through late-night texts that basically were the equivalent of "send nudes" over and over.
The feeling of guilt starts bleeding a bit into my stories and general writing style, incidentally spurring the creation of Pony-Me as a way to disconnect myself from everything else before I hurt someone again. Also, a mental breakdown stemming directly from that realization.
Christmas. Got a pile of computer parts to distract me from my thoughts.
Everything else.
2017 was not my year, and I'm just hoping that I can maybe use 2018 as damage control, if only I could find a way to apologize somehow.
My only resolution for 2018 is to not hurt anybody again, accidentally or otherwise.
Hope 2018 is a good year