Feeling depressed and burnt out · 3:56am Dec 29th, 2017

Pretty much the title. Its been a couple of years since I've felt depressed but now I am. It's because I'm feeling burnt out in my art and music. I have very little motivation to complete projects anymore and most of my inspiration is just gone. I am 'drawing' for most of the day which is what I normally do but that drawing isn't so much drawing anymore, just watching youtube and reading. And though I play the bass, I find it hard to play anything new and what I do know how to play, I screw the songs up and continue to screw them up.

It's really depressing to feel burnt out with my art and that effects my writing as well. Not that I don't have ideas and directions on where to go with my stories, I just don't feel motivated to write. It's kinda a snowball effect from being burnt out with art. If I don't feel inspired or motivated to draw then I get angry and stressed when it comes to music which then doesn't make me feel motivated to write which then starts to effect everything else I do during the day.

I thought I'd be glad when I finished school and I was free to do whatever I want but it's been hard to leave it behind. I now have all the time in the world to do what ever I want and even though I know I'm going to uni in July, it's just the six months before hand I'm not entirely sure what to do with. I am putting together a portfolio for entrance to uni which does take some time but I haven't really gotten it started. Though I try to be awake by nine, once I'm awake I just kinda lay in bed for a couple hours because I just don't feel motivated to do anything I want to do.

It's funny how feeling burnt out and depressed come hand in hand sometimes and I guess this is one of those times.

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