Something That I Have To Admit- My Mental Challenges · 2:12pm Dec 11th, 2017
Over the past like 4 years, I've had to deal with severe depression and mild to moderate anxiety. I use the diapered stories and diapers to help me cope with these things that make it really hard to function. I hope you can understand, that it hurts a lot and I don't want insults being thrown at my way. You can insult my writing but please don't insult me personally. I also have had to deal with severe ADHD (the inattentive type) my whole life so it affects how often I post updates on stories. I am also diagnosed with Autism Spectrum Disorder. I also had to deal with the loss of an Uncle that is an example of a nearly perfect person. I say is because I know there is an afterlife. I get winks from Heaven and God above telling me he cares, when I don't care about myself. I don't want to keep this private any longer because I know if will help others. I am currently feeling better from it due to professional treatment and lifestyle changes, but it still doesn't change the fact that I still feel sad sometimes. I hope I can discuss these matters with one of you Bronies who is on the brink of Suicide or self harm. I want to help you. I know how it feels and how having support will help you cope.
I can relate a lot with what you're talking about. The reason I do padded pony stories is that, for me, I find such work to be comforting as it allows my mind to go back to times where life wasn't so difficult as a result of being, for lack of better words, 'different'.
I was born with a condition that gradually took all of my physical eyesight. I now need special technology to use a computer since I can't see anything anymore. MLP helped me a lot as I lost the last of my sight over the course of the last 5 years and being able to put such cute innocence out there to help soothe myself, but also let others know it is an okay coping mechanism, means a lot to me.
Over the years my condition has brought me to the verge of ending my life prematurely. Largely due to how others have seen me as more of an 'inconvenience' as a result of a situation I have no control over. I lost two good jobs as a result of workplace bullying and discrimination. You'd think these matters would be illegal and could open up lawsuits but the ADA is super weak and getting definite information to prove said discrimination is impossible since those who do it know how to do it without leaving behind a legally hurtful mark. :(
However, also like you, I'm trying to take all that has happened to me to try and help others. I know I've saved a few people from ending their lives and inspired others through my BronyCon efforts of Coping With Limitations Through Pony. It never earned me any fame nor financial gain but I did gain loads of self-esteem knowing that the MLP community is one where those who aren't, by society standards, 'normal' can thrive.
Stay strong, know you're not alone, and be proud of how you are taking a positive stance to your life's situations instead of allowing yourself to feel like a victim. We can't control what others do but we can control how we let what they say influence us. Let's both do our best to be a positive influence through our efforts in creativity and aiding others who need a friend. :)
Thanks for your thoughts, Yosh E O. What are going through seems really tough. Do you use mental imagery with stories?
Oh, yes. All the time. Mental imagery is what allows me to see something besides absolutely nothing. (The downside to being totally blind later in life is adapting to having your eyes open but having nothing to look at. Stories help by allowing the part of the brain that processes images to 'see' without the burden of broken eyes.)
I do hope you never let what people say get to you too much. I spent a lot of time regretting how I ended up liking diapered cartoon animals. I've spoken with my therapists and, fortunately, made peace in knowing it is a healthy part of me as long as I keep it so. This going back to feeling in control over what makes me happy instead of being controlled and not letting the interest be more than the innocent, healing aspect it is meant to be to aid me in simplicity over complexity over life challenges.
Well I don't have any of the problems you have, but one time I had a period of my life when I wanted to kill myself. I never went through because I wasn't strong enough to do it, I still remember the times I stood in the kitchen with a knife pointed at my neck begging myself to do it. And when I often thought about jumping off the balcony. Either way I talked it out with a Conselor and with lots of music, now I no longer want to die. I relise the value of my life and others lives around me. So please try to talk it out with someone or find out a way to vent it. Being angry and feeling emotion is just being human. People are asses but you get used to it. Hell you're on the internet, this is a great place to start, everyone makes fun of you even though they no nothing about you.
Anyways im just saying, if you do believe in Heaven and God, then you should know all of this is a test. Life is a test to see if you're worthy to be in Heaven. God works in mysterious ways. So, hold on to life, and in the future it might benefit you. So, get smart and get a good job meanwhile most of those who ridicule you work at Mcdonalds.
SEE YA!!!
Also thanks for replying to my post, I know it may not seem like it but I really appreciate it.
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Thank you for your mental strength and courage! And also helping me too! Maybe I should be like Dr.Wolf and start a YouTube series about listening people’s problems and give them advice. This community needs more than Dr.Wolf can provide.
Hi I kind of know what this is like I have Aspergers and was bullied all through out elementary school it was hard for me but when I found some friends and told them how I feel things got a lot better for me. It's nice to know there are others you can count on.
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Thank you so much!
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sorry this add on came a little late but I think this song reflects people like us well.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JGZODoQq2Xg
I just now read this and I am surprised that we have the same mental conditions. I’m on an antidepressant, anti anxiety medication, ADHD medication, and I have high-functioning autism.
i too have ADHD but i also have acute anxiety as well as aspergers i don't judge or insult in fact i find a lot of AB/DL stories adorable and cute and if writing stories like these are therapeutic to you i encourage it i know that some people pretend to be babies or wear diapers as a coping method for stress and mental health or mental exhaustion because it helps those people calm down and remember the simpler time when we are being cared for by our mothers. i don't practice AB/DL myself but i do see how it's helpful,calming,and sometimes very therapeutic so i pinkie promise i won't judge or insult you or what you write about. like i said i find stories like the one you wrote to be very cute and adorable.