Just me rantting · 11:42am Oct 12th, 2012
Hello all, Chaos here, I don't really try and make my own feelings known to much but I felt like I needed somewhere to rant about what I was feeling lately. I had finished reading something yesterday that I had grown accustomed to reading every night for the past week, once it ended it gave me time to think about myself and I grew emotional at that fact, I realized that I didn't want the story to end. I don't like when things end, when I enjoy something or care for someone I don't like the thought of every having to end any enjoyment I receive from it. When ever I felt that something was coming to an end I would stop and never finish it until I found something that could replace it. I know everyone feels like this at some point but I gain these attachments since because I realize that without them I'd just go back to being unimportant to everyday life. There's never been a time in my life where I thought I was truly needed for something, I was just somewhere at the right time and if I wasn't then my own story would have eventually ended without anyone remembering me. When I had left Fim Fiction for those few months it wasn't because I was busy but rather after the first month away I was to afraid to come back since I knew I wouldn't have been missed, but something did force back and just as I thought I wasn't really missed or talked about but I grew used to it. I wanted people to miss me but I guess I don't have that affect on people.
Honestly dude, it wasn't the same without you. These past few months ever since school/education stuff reinstitutionalized everything on fimfic has gotten... slower.
Honestly with stories before I was completely saddened everytime there was a delay on my side to be able to write, now it's like meh. Can't get back into the swing of things ever since that nasty 3 week cold completely ruining my thinking process and overal motivation for life. It's true none of us like it when a story ends but that's when there are other stories to read, other lives to experiance from different perspectives, when one thing closes another one opens.
If I said it before I'll say it again, It's great to have you back
I may not have known you before you left, but may I say it is a privilege to know you now. A belated welcome back, and I look forward to many more good times ahead.
Hey....hey........hey......
*opens up arms*
Come on....come hug me bro.......Its all alright, your not the only one who feels that...