Apologies Pt 2 · 6:52pm Mar 18th, 2017
I miss writing and editing for this community. Been over 2 years since I have. I stopped writing after I figured out the ending of Paradiso. Which wasn't really an issue (I had a bad habit of looking at the end of the book before starting to read it as a kid 
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I wrote for the same reason I played video games: escapism. It eventually started to work less and less, sadly. I eventually stopped. I came back a few times, saying to myself "I'mma write again, try to make myself feel better". I never followed through.
I've struggled with depression and anxiety my whole life and they kept me away. They have ruined so much for me. I moved across the country to try and start over without them. If you've ever struggled as I, you know it doesn't work like that.
I have to cancel both Paradiso and the Songs of Sorrow sequel (both of which I already knew how they'd go). The depression and anxiety became worse. I might not even make it away from my computer before the pills overcome me.
I'm sorry to all the friends I made here, and to all the people who wanted another chapter. I'll leave what I have written down here, for if somebody wants to finish the stories off for me.
I'm sorry.
For Paradiso: Octavia was going to go see her sister at the orphanage when they got back home. While there Vinyl would entertain the foals. Things would start off fine. The sisters would get into it about Tavi leaving. Tavi and Vinyl would leave. They decide to go back and adopt her the next day. She ran away. They go home after looking and wait for news. (This is where I hadn't decided which ending I wanted.
1) She comes back. Gets adopted by Fleur and Fancy cuz they can't have kids. Her and Tavi patch things up (bittersweet ending)
2) Fancy is on his way to tell Tavi that Fleur is pregnant and sees (don't even remember her name). They talk, she explains what is going on. Fancy talks to her in that awesome way he does. He takes her to Tavi and tells her the good news after they ask why he was on his way there. (Thought about having #1 be a nightmare Tavi has after she runs away and labeling the last chapter as Epilogue, just to throw people off)
For SoS Sequel: Vinyl lives. Alcohol + stress is why she was unconcious. Minor damages. Short story. Mostly just Octavia reflecting on everything that happened and how she was in the wrong on some things (pretty much like Autograph, but from her perspective). Would end with Vinyl and Tavi sitting on a bench outside the hospital, talking. Octavia still loves Vinyl, but not like before. She loves Surprise. Vinyl still love Tavi that way, but tells her that she wants to rebuild their friendship and she won't cry over what is lost (Roads Untraveled by Linkin Park is what brought the story to mind). Would really just fade out right there, probably with a hug. Something about feeling at home in the embrace or some.
If you finish the stories, feel free to change them how you want (and feel free to have the SoS sequel on your account).
Hmm. Well. I'm not very good at this, but I'll give it a shot. I've been there, on the edge, and jumped. I was lucky enough to live. I really hope that this wasn't you letting go, and if it was, I hope you pull through and find happiness on the other side. I still struggle occasionally. I keep projects going so that I have something that needs finishing before I can. I hope you find that thing that you want to stick around to finish.
I know that when you're that low, words don't mean much. But they're all I can offer. So, I guess all I can say is that I get it, or at least I think I do.
As for the stories, thank you. Thank you for sharing them with us. It's been so long since I read them that I admit that I don't remember them well (reading excessive amounts of pony fiction is one of my coping strategies, I guess), but thank you for writing what you have, and for not taking it away. And thank you for revealing the ending to us. As someone who has seen many authors remove their stories from the site out of spite, it makes me glad that there are those who care enough about their stories and those who read to leave them intact, and even to reveal how they would've ended if they were ever finished.
So. I hope you get through this. I hope you find contentment. I hope you at least find peace. And thank you.
You've been silent since you posted this. I really hope that you didn't pull the plug. I tried to find a way of contacting you, to check on you, but couldn't find anything. I really hope that you're still with us, even if it's not on this website. There are still people that care.