Something that's bugging me · 5:42am Dec 15th, 2016
I'm...scared. Online dating is a thing and a lot of people are happy that it exists(and just as equally despise the damn thing) but to me? It's been a good thing. I has a girlfriend that I love with all my heart but...I know that relationships shouldn't be all 'let's be together all the time' kind of thing but...it just scares me when I don't know anything. I don't know if their okay, happy, healthy, or...even give a damn about me anymore. I'm depressed it's plenty obvious but it's...just one of those things that always gets me. Some people who online date either break up cause of the distance, or they actually get together and be happy...but for me? I'm scared that I'll never meet the one I love so much.
*takes a deep breath*
What I'm trying to say is I'm worried that I'll never be able to see the one special lady I care about, and either something bad happens to her and I wouldn't know it, she'll forget me cause of reasons...or she'll find someone better because they actually live closer...I'm keeping their name(even their screen name) for privacy sake. But I just really wish that I could meet them and be with them and live a happy life...but distance is such a bitch and it's always scaring me. This just...hits me sometimes like 'everyone you care about will abandon you' and I can't help but feel horrible about it...then the next day I just feel normal and go about my day like nothing happened...god help me
It'll be ok, I mean I've never done online dating before cuz my girlfriends I have now are all I really need right now. But still you'll be ok, no one ever truly loses their love for another no matter what (this is why im poly, i just cant stop myself from loving other girls ;;-;;) it'll be fine dont worry too much *hugs*
4340336 thanks Candy *hugs back*
i know the feeling. i'm online dating too and it is worrying.
Just been really busy this week, with chores and stuff. I didn't forget about you.
4340338 Np
4340339 yeah
4340342 I know I know, and I'm not saying anything against you...I suppose I'm just putting myself down is all...but just get done with the things you have to do in life. I'll wait for you hon.
4340350
I'm too worried for my own good. Worrying about my friends, worrying about Fox(who is in fact my girlfriend) and too worried about me. Even when everything's perfectly fine I always doubt myself for some reason...4340342 I'm sorry if I sounded needy or anything I didn't mean to...damn it now I'm sounding to lop sided with 'it's okay' again. Fucking hell...
4340705 Yeah, you're prolly putting yourself down. I'd advise you to try and curb that habit.
4340953 I know. But that's what happens when you have too much time on your hands and also depressed. But I'll curb that stupid habit, thank you
4340996 ^^
4341000 And I'll get better just for you Fox...all for you
4341022 ^^
4341029 so how have you been?
4341048 Good.
4341053 that's good
have you been busy with snow or something?
4341057 No, with chores, group managing, and Pokemon Sun.
4341128 that sucks, group managing?, pokemanz always take up the longest time
4341146 Yeah, defribbing Story Standards like no tomorrow.
4341176 ah, sounds about right.