Insomnia and Distractions · 4:01pm Nov 15th, 2016
I must've started writing something about this at least five times now in the past few days, worrying over what to say about my present state of mind and that it isn't as serious as I'm telling myself it is.
As of late, I've been losing a fair amount of sleep, unable to reach that state for quite some time without getting back up and checking messages, updates, what have you. It happens on occasion and it's nothing too worrying because my state of mind during these periods of time tends to go toward being creative.
However, I find myself recently distracted by inconsequential thoughts of an obsessive nature. Nothing violent, no self-harming, anything like that, this I am fervently adamant about. It's just little things that nag and gnaw at me, constantly saying "Think about me! No, me! No, this! Don't stop thinking about it! It's just there and it exists!"
So much so that I've looked at three incomplete chapters of various works and I've just said "...Why can I write? Oh right, this thing that isn't a problem is a problem. I have to go make sure it's still not a problem, though."
I'm currently working through it as much as I can, but at the moment, I've just been a little tapped for creativity. Oh, I love thinking of ideas for the future, whether it be Samael's Mercy, completing Sun Gives Light to the Moon, working on a new fic entirely. It's just the implementation and expanding of the ideas that have been eluding me.
However, have faith! I am positive I can direct myself toward making more horse words! That I can assure you. Just don't blame me if it takes a little while, please. 
You can do it, dude just take a depth breath, relax and start writing those ideas, then you can turn back to them and see what can you make out of them
Maybe talking to someone, who you can share your ideas with, could help. Maybe.