Wallowing · 8:36pm Sep 22nd, 2016
Warning: The following is me wallowing, in whatever ponies wallow in. So if you don't want to read someone having a bit of a pity party leave now with my blessing.
I'm not scared. That's too strong a word.
I'm really, really nervous.
About 7 months ago I was diagnosed with Epithelial Basement Membrane Dystrophy which is a degenerative eye condition. I will spare you the gory, clinical details but what it means is that my right eye throws out false images because my pre-focus is shot. Some days are fine, no problems at all. Others days...aren't very good at all. Those days I type with my right eye closed so I can focus on the screen.
There is a fix. It involves 15 minutes in front of a laser followed by 5 minutes of special drops. But there is a problem.
Age. If I was still in my mid to late 30's there would be no issue. But I hit the big 5-0 this year. That means that my eyes can't physically flex like they used to and an inflexible eye won't respond to the therapy. The specialist about an hour drive from where live called up yesterday and wants me to come by tomorrow. They are going to measure my eyes, again, down to the micrometer. If the eyes have changed in shape at all it means they can still flex and I can get the zap. If they haven't, well, it means all I can do is to keep my eyeglass prescription as updated as possible and try to roll with the changes.
But the really nerve wracking part is the worry that the left eye will go to. If it does I'm not sure what i will do. Likely never be able to drive again as street signs will be unreadable up until point blank range.
I don't know if I want to write right now.
I don't know if I should write right now.
That sounds horrible
I wish you the best of luck for your examination tomorrow!
Very sorry to hear that. If there is anything we can do to help, you let us know, okay?
I'm sorry you're having to go through that; vision problems are one of those possibilities I kind of dread. I hope the specialist will have good news for you after your exam!