A bit of explanation on the lack of activity · 5:57am May 6th, 2016
Hey, all. Don't worry, I'm alive, and before you ask- no, nothing is getting cancelled. I just feel like those who've been on the journey with Sunset and the MC deserve a bit of explanation why there seems to be this sudden halt and total lack of work added.
As I've mentioned in comments and replies to people before, I'm a soldier. In a lot of ways, it's not a time-consuming job: off by 5 on most days, weekends off, lots of holidays, and so on. The military affords its members a pretty nice life and furnishings to be able to take part in a lot of activities, as well as easy internet access on public computers if you don't buy your own cable (Which you really should do, by the way). However, on the flipside, when deployed or in the field, you have little to no time at all to do much of anything except your job- the job you trained for. I just recently returned from an NTC rotation through all the month of April, so I've been totally cut off from home throughout that time, so no ability to update even if I wanted to. When it comes to what the Army asks of me, I can't control that. We train so we can fight and kill the enemy- it's what we do.
However, I have had time since I got back, but I can't get myself to write anything. Or do anything. Of any importance.
At all. I barely even eat or sleep. I'm gonna need to get up in a little more than five hours for a hard PT session.
I'm... I'm not well, and there's not really an outlet for me to do much about it right now. I think I haven't been well for a while. I had issues stemming back years ago, but I thought I had pushed past them. Now I think I was in denial and broke something to simply cope. Problem is that I'm in a fairly rigorous, proud MOS for the Army, and I'm proud -very, very proud- so I don't want to show any sign of weakness, particularly to people who don't really know me very well.
Everyone who really knew me- what I'd done, why I was so messed up in the first place... they're all back at home. Only one friend from home has kept up contact with me beyond my family. I'm pretty alone here, a right-brained warrior/artist surrounded by left-brained folks who I barely know.
I'll push through. Always have. Just thought y'all deserved a fair enough explanation as to why I've been so lazy. I'll get a breakthrough eventually and I'll kick it back up and churn out in a mass of energy. Right now, just a bit-
well, not here.
We're all relieved. And don't die because the story will die with you. Plus we will wait. This story is just that good.
Thank you for your service and I hope for a speedy recovery.
3925220 No, just problems of a very long struggle with depression and addiction. Combine that with social insecurity and a million other things... it puts a lot of stress on you.