Jesus man, the fuck? · 4:24am Apr 6th, 2016
Buckle your pants cause this is about to be a long winded mother fucker!
Anyway, the reason why I haven't posted anything new for so long is due to some mental health issues. I was diagnosed with Manic Depression and Bipolar disorder which is the reason why I had a pretty bad mental breakdown last June.
I wound up in a low security mental institution for a while. But I've been on some medication since then but the damage was done. I lost interest in almost everything I enjoyed, I couldn't even get out of bed most days. I lost contact with a lot of friends, almost lost my job as well as my life.
That coupled with the fact that I punched my laptop screen a while back putting it out of commission. So i feel a lot better than did so I figured it was time to get some shit done! pinkiehappy-
Anyway heres a peak of the chapter thus far:
"...and I don't want the world to see me, cause I don't think that they'd understand. When everything's made to be broken, I just want you to know who I am..." His head turned and he stared at Audi, his small eyes narrowing. "Who are you? You shouldn't be here. NO! GET OUT!" at the last two words his eyes flashed blue and Audi found herself tumbling into darkness
"How did he just do that? How can he have noticed me so quickly, or at all for that matter? Only unicorns can notice if someone is in their mind. How can he have-" Audi was cut off as her mind was suddenly assaulted by a massive pressure. The presence coated her mind, seeping into every nook and cranny, sifting through memories and feelings at a speed that made her eyes water with pain. After a moment the presence slowed down and she felt an ever growing curiosity coming from it. The pressure lessened but only enough for her to be able to move her mouth. "Hello? E-Evan?"
The being in question opened and insubstantial door and walked out in front of her. Tilting his head slightly the void was replaced by a larger slate roof what had 4 gargoyles on it. He smiled and the pressure in her mind lessened even more, but the presence remained there. "So," he said, his mind conveying the meaning of his words as he spoke them in his native tongue. "What are you doing here? How dare you? What made you think that you had the right to violate the one place that mankind has held sacred? The one safe place that my kind has that has been impenetrable for hundreds, if not millions of years? WHAT GIVE YOU THAT RIGHT? ANSWER ME GOD FUCKING DAMMIT!"
Audi shrunk away as his rage became more apparent, the sky slowly darkening as lightening began to flash in the background. "You've been in a coma for almost a month! You're dying! Do you not care-"
"No." Audi was caught of guard by that one word. She didn't know if it was the resigned tone he used or how empty his eyes were.
"What? H-how can you not care? this is your life, how can you just throw it away?"
He looked at her, his brown eyes filled with pain. He walked forward until they were face to face and he leaned forward so that his lips brushed her ear. "Because this wouldn't be the first time I died." he began to shake slightly and she realized he was crying. "I don't want to live anymore. Theres too much pain in my life. Too many grudges, too many hurts, too many wrongs. I've committed the gravest sin a human can do. I committed suicide. I was ready to face my fate. I was ready to embrace hell, the torture that awaited me wouldn't be anything different from what I lived. But lo and behold I awaken, still alive," he laughed, a bitter constricted noise. "Gods a fucking joker. Or maybe this is my replenishment, being forced to live again."
Hope your doing better, well still be around when ya decide to get back on the ....bike.. Focus on you first and do what you want to so.