28 years now. Still got a bit until I hit the truly scary 30! Don't really have anything big planned for my birthday. Been playing iRacing and then tonight I'm having dinner with my dad, so that'll be nice.
And also I feel like I should get in the habit of blogging a bit more. It's been a while.
Read If You Must · 6:37am Jul 19th, 2015
Something's been eating at me. I'm alone in this world. And I always will be. Nothing can change that. Doesn't matter if I want to change. I've dug my grave and there's no escaping it now. It's too late. All I can do is wait for the Lord to call me home. Until then, all I can do is keep digging and foolishly hope for something that will never happen. As long as I remain as I am, I will always be alone.
I should be happy. Two years on this site. But part of me wonders why I even bothered "celebrating" two years on this site. I never even acknowledged my first full year here. Besides, a lot more people have accomplished much more than me in less time. I mean, look at everyone who follows me. Look at what they've done. Two years and what do I have to show for it? Nothing. Four average stories and a bunch blogs that don't mean shit. Pathetic.
I'm sorry. I can only imagine what this makes me look like.
Hey, don't think that okay?
(((Loopy hugs)))
It makes you look like everybody else. You are not alone
You look at yourself and see a pathetic wreck. I see a kind, loving friend.
Good sirrah, continue to think in this way, and you will live a long, healthy, prosperous life full of benefits.
You are finally seeing sense.
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Still feel like shit, but thanks for your kind words.
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Thanks everyone.
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Tavi4...Subject 19 does NOT belong in the puzzle box!
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We love you, man.
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Thanks
*hug*
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(Hugs tight)
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He most certainly does. He belongs here, with me.
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I look upon every human being, and see the former.
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Even me?
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Are you a human being, Hudson?
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Yes.
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Well, then...
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I fight you for him you fiend!
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Steady on, why do you want to fight me.
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Because no one should be in the puzzle box Tavi4, even you....
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I should be in the Puzzle Box, it is my home. It should be all our homes.
Nor did I my friend.
You have also written quite a bit more than I have, and I have been here a few months longer than you.
I also see something that is very good in this blog; you haven't given up hope.
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Thank you
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No problem.
If you ever need anyone to talk to, I am here.
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I'll remember that