It's amazing, Life... · 2:34pm Jul 28th, 2012
Just yesterday, the 27th, I found out that my cousin had been in a bad car accident.
She hydro-planed on a patch of slick road, straight into oncoming traffic... which mainly consisted of a semi.
The semi, in an attempt to not hit her, slammed into pickup truck, taking all three of them off of the road in the process.
The semi's driver was almost totally fine, merely needing some on-site assistance.
The pick-up's driver had to be airlifted to the nearest hospital, but he'll apparently be fine, after a lot of work.
My cousin's passenger was dead on site.
My cousin...
she broke 11 of 12 ribs
shattered multiple joints and dozens of bones
received extreme lacerations from the spray of glass and metal shards
and now, the portions of her brain that control speech and higher reasoning...
are dead.
and they're putting pressure onto the other portions of her brain.
As of 12:00pm Pacific Standard time yesterday, family members staying with her have been considering end-of-life options.
I'm not entirely sure I'll be physically able to get to the services, which will likely be occurring soon, as they will almost definitely be happening more than 1300 miles away, and I'm homeless, with no form of transportation.
I feel so useless right now.
There's nothing I can do for her, even if I somehow did arrive.
Whether she's dead or stuck in a persistent vegetative state for the rest of her life, she's gone.
and I can't do anything.
these are the things that would drive someone to dark sorceries and evil means to try to be less useless, if this were a more fantastical world.
Guys, I'm going to be a little off for a bit.
I don't know how many people are going to see this or even care, but I'm a bit of a wreck right now.
I'm going to be going to stay with my parents for a day or two, and then I'm going to mope around the libraries for a bit.
This is why I can't believe in a totally all-powerful, supposedly benevolent God.
Because there is no way anyone with ultimate power eternal and a loving heart would let two people get injured and two people just plain die for no reason.
So fuck-you all you christian people wandering around trying to "save my soul" and "teach me the word of God" because if your god lived then my cousin would too.
... Here's an amusing thought and coincidence. Not 5 seconds after finishing reading this, a guy walked up to my door. He was one of those door-to-door christian priests. The minute the dude started spouting of nonsense about "Let the Lord be your savior" I backhanded him across the face and told him to get his carcass of my property... I only put this here, because it was THIS post that influenced that action, and I do not regret it. Just an amusing thought for ya,
255353
well, that was a little extreme, but thank you for the thought.
255354 Well, this wasn't the only thing that influenced, but it helped. And I don't think it's extreme at all. The asshole has been doing this for 5 weeks straight. I'm just tired of him.
Fuck, man.
Shit like this just shouldn't happen to people.
I've lost family before and it's...
Fuck, man...
I'm sorry for you, that's all I can really say.
There's nothing you really can say in these situations, except that they shouldn't happen.
255355
You could've called the police for harassment.
He could get the cops on you for assault, and he might sue.
255356
Thank you.
I'm trying to look at it in a different light:
I'm not sad she's going, I'm happy she was here to begin with.
255358 Meh. Hind-sights's a jerk, and I don't think he'd sue really. He doesn't seem that forward.
255358
That's a good way to look at it.
I wish I could be that way, I just get angry more than anything when things like this happen.
You should be able to able to enjoy your life and go out on a happy note, not through some horrific event.
I offer my condolences, and again I'm sorry.
255368
thank you.
And I'm trying, oh so hard to keep things bright, but it's so hard...
I feel so hungry right now, but I just ate.
I hate some of my coping mechanisms (but not the ones involving ponies)
255369
However you cope, at least you're coping.
When my cousin Ryan passed away I spent about $200.00 on hot chocolate, so I can understand coping mechanisms.
And I can talk all day if you need someone to talk to.
Dude... Just...
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Hang in there. I feel for ya.
255378
thanks, all.
And while yes it's understandable, I'm homeless and jobless, so I should be eating when it's just going to go to waste.
255385
thank you. that really does make me feel a bit better.
255388
If it's helping you feel better then it's not wasted.
And I can understand your situation, I had to live with my grandmother for awhile.
Although she makes great cookies, so it wasn't all bad.
255401
heh, sounds like an awesome grandma.
Mine just gave me money, because she knew I'd know better what I wanted to use it on.
255404
Yeah, she was awesome.
You wouldn't know it from how she looks and acts, but she actually owned a saloon in Texas over 60 years ago.
She actually broke up bar fights and mixed drinks on a daily basis.
All im gonna say is Shit happens but it takes time to move on, try to focus on the positive things of life. helped me out when my great grandmother died
255385 Seconded.
If I could hug you, I would. Trying times indeed when a fellow member of society is terribly injured, especially one of your kin.
I hope, that by some miracle of medical science, that your cousin will at least partially recover. And no thanks to that 'higher being' that some people choose to believe controls our very lives, who lets us go through this suffering and loss, while supposedly remaining benevolent.
I wish you the best.
255503
there is, unfortunately, about a 98% that she'll dies of complications, excessive trauma, or just general organ failure.
the remaining 2% is that she survives, stuck in a persistent vegetative state.
she's gone, one way or another. Portions of her brain are dead. As in, rotting in her skull.
I'm sorry if that comes across as yelling, I don't mean it like that. It's just... there's not a realistic chance she's going to pull through, or that she'd be her if she did.
255522 Oh, no, you're absolutely correct in that. And that would be why I said a 'miracle of medical science'. But miracles don't exist, and reality governs life. So accepting the fact that she will most likely be entirely lost is an entirely reasonable thing to do. I'd worry about you more if you thought otherwise. I'm probably a horrid counselor. I say this again: I wish you the best.
255547
Thank you. Your sympathy really does help.
It's times like yesterday that I honestly wished I could just go to equestria... or at least to the Strifelands. Either one would work. I the first case, I'd be in the land of happiness and ponies. In the second, I'd be the second-in-command of Hive Verbose, leading the changeling empire to greatness as a benevolent and grand combination of all the races in peaceful harmony.
Either one, I'm happy.
I am soooo sorry man. If you need me i am here i will help you out in any way that i can. You know me and you know how to get ahold of me You are my brother dude and i will ALWAYS be here to help!
255704
I know. I'm going to be with my parents for today at least, Momma said my little sister is taking it really hard. I'm going ot be handing out and cheering people up if I can.
255710
Ok. If you need me to do anything just give me a hollar
256110
there's a difference between "died for a reason" and "die because it rained, and a tire didn't get quite enough traction"
I cannot think that any all-powerful being would simply go "eh, they can just die" without even a single drop of alchohol, without any recklessness, without any party doing anything at all.
And please, you can believe in your god, but do not push him to me, and I won't do the same with my beliefs. I have mine, and I can respect yours if you don't force them on me.
258292
I always have lived knowing life is precious from the moment I realized that I, as a human being, could end the lives of so many tiny things without a thought.
I'm not trying to fight, I'm just tired and angry and distraught, not blaming someone else's deity.
I'm sorry for lashing out.
Can you forgive me?
258486
Apology accepted, and I'm thankful you forgave me.
I wasn't trying to trash him, but it did come out that way.
What made it worse, was that the evening before I found out about everything, one of those people that wander around trying to "save your soul" who took up an hour of my time, all because I was trying not to be rude, and missed the bus I needed to get a free dinner, something that's very important, because I have no money and hadn't eaten.
And worse, when I tried to explain that I needed to go, he kept bull-dozing over me to keep trying to talk.
Sigh... Mostly, I don't mind the concept of God, as a force, he drives people to try to do good, but I hate people that try to push him onto others, and I guess it felt like you were. Again, sorry for lashing out.
Brohoof?
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258515
eh, it wasn't too bad, I told the story to one of my friends, and they bought me McDonalds. Worked out in the end, I guess.
And you can still brohoof without the hoof. It's what socks are for
258564
oh, all right...
Fluttershy will give me the hoof.
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See? you made her feel awkward in front of all these people.
And now, as adorable as it is, she's hiding under the blankets on the bed at my friend's house. At least he'll forgive me for bringing her in, but he's not going to be happy she's scared and blushing again...
258568
poor Fluttershy...
I mentioned that I was talking to you, and the blankets popped up. Steven gets it. I'm sure of that much, at least.
258576
darn. I'll never be able to be heard over your massive swag!