On a scale of one to ten, how happy are you? · 5:05pm Jun 22nd, 2015
So, after bidding farewell to another awesome writer, this question popped into my head: How happy are fimfiction writers?
my first encounter with an artist disappearing was the famous emkajii. Back in 2013 I started reading his amazing fic. I was amazed with the quality of his work and couldn't wait to see how it ended. But then one day, my brother brings to my attention that he had not been logged-in in over a year. Lo and behold , it was true. This happened to people that I followed several times, some times they would give notice, other times, like emkajii, they would just drop off the face of the earth, and yet others would just gradually fade away so slowly, slip out the back so quietly, that you don't even notice they are gone. And unfortunately Even knew of a tragic story in which a pegasister committed suicide because of depression.
I want to know what the community thinks so go ahead and comment if you whant.
What are your thoghts? If you want, please share your situation, current or passed. How did you overcome it? Was it/is it because of the pressure to deliver on a story, or was it/is it because of things in real life? If you don't want to coment, you can just post a simple 1/10 to 10/10 happiness
I wanted to make a poll, but I couldn't figure out how to put it in the blog
I've noticed that people in fandoms, not just mlp, have a high rate of depression. I think that mlp had something special when it came to this though, for when I first became a brony, I was in a very dark place in my life. The overly happy world, bright vibrant colors, and generally heart warming content of the show dragged me in and gave me a place of safety. Since then I've fallen into depression a few times, but in my case it's been my writing that has kept me from returning to such dark places.
I might be an odd one, but a lot of times I use my writing as a way to convey how I feel emotionally, and to work through things. But sadly I've known a few people who were extremely sensitive and after being hated on by people, they quit. One of my friends, a much more talented writer then I am, has started several projects and quit them all due to depression. I guess in the end all we can do is try and encourage each other and offer our support.
As for my happiness rating, I'd have to say that at the moment I'm at a 6/10 or a 7/10. Haven't been getting much sleep lately, and that wrecks havoc on my mental state.
Good ol' 0/10. There comes a point in life, where you just need to stop and take a break. But then you realise, life doesn't stop. It keeps going, so you just need to suck it up, and carry the fuck on.
I used to write. I used to write daily. I used to enjoy writing. I still enjoy writing. I don't write any more. Why? Because I can't work up the mental strength to do it. I just don't care any more. Do I want to write, yes. Will I write? Probably not.
It's a difficult feeling to describe; Being in a pit of blackness surrounded by tiny motes of light that are your coworkers, and noticing they won't come near you. Noticing they don't care. Am I too good at hiding my unhappiness? Or am I just normal? Is this feeling of hopelessness what everyone deals with? Am I weak?
I had someone notice that I wasn't looking happy once. He recommended I go see someone. I was elated that he noticed, and it gave me the courage to go through the channels that would get me that support. I had something to work towards, and I was happy again. When the time came around for the appointment, I was told I wasn't depressed, I just wasn't finding ways to fit in enough. That made me sad. It should make anyone sad, really. To be told 'you are unhappy, because you do not fit in. Have you tried fitting in?'. To be fair, turning things on and off again usually clears the errors...
Is my un/happiness an error?
Bah. I'm looking in to this way to much.
I'm gonna go back to being an adult now.
Cheers.