Writing Clop And Tricking One's Own Ego · 3:37am Dec 19th, 2014
I could never bring myself to fully write out a clopfic.
I've tried it several times over the years, and could never succeed.
I've always wondered how so many authors could write clop and not feel any kind of guilt about doing so.
Hell, some authors in particular seem proud of their perverted creations.
I never understood how they could do that.
I've wanted to write clop, but my brain would always stop me.
I'd convince myself that what I was doing was stupid, and that committing to such smut would only result in me making an ass of myself.
Usually, being self aware as a writer is supposed to be a good thing, and yet my motivation to write a clopfic would collapse along with my self esteem, which a terrible feeling.
It's as though I have to know that I'm writing erotica, but at the same time think that I'm not doing something pointless and idiotic.
A lot of fellow writers on this site are able to do that, but I can't bring myself to do the same.
All attempts to write clop have ended with me hating myself for wanting to try in the first place.
My mind is my worst enemy here.
Have you tried doing what I did with To Tartarus And Back, and made the clop part of a bigger story? Could just make it something thought-provoking, like prostitution and the moral choices involved in that, or something emotional, like a relationship on the rocks and only held together by physical attraction.
Or even something based on a legend, like my story.
All writing is is creativity, and applying a story to my clop got me through it a whole lot better than just having sex because sex. Everything had a point and a reason, everything had a why and how and when, where and what to it.
So I'd suggest just trying to put a story to everything and see how that works out for you. Demons, angels, or simply the fantasies of the few. Hell, fantasy could even be a great character development tool, showing what they like, and through that, some inner facts of their personality that would never shine through in public, or even private. A stallion who wants to be dominant, but lacks the confidence to even stand equal with the mare he adores. Or a flirt who's always caught up in rough sex picturing just having a quiet dinner with a close love, but holding up her reputation, perhaps even her way of life, fearing that showing such weakness and closeness may lead to her being abandoned.
Maybe even as a coping mechanism for a pony so scarred by a past break-up, that all he can muster for 'love' is a quick one-night stand.
There's a ton of stuff you can do, even with clop as your base. Or, you could build a story, and just throw a bunch of sex into it as a support mechanic.
Unless you've already tried all this, then maybe clop's not your thing :V.
You don't like clop, and you feel stupid writing it. So why do you even want to try it instead of writing about something that interrests you?