Progress, and the problems therein for an indecisive clusterfuck · 10:03pm Oct 8th, 2014
Often, I wonder what progress is.
One of the biggest hurdles I think I need to overcome is: what exactly it is that I want that progress to be, and whether progress in life is really measured by one's ability to move on from... Well, people, things, and memories.
I am aware that this does somewhat sound a touch melodramatic, but the worry is most definitely there, for me at least.
The more I move along with my life, ever developing as a person, I inevitably leave a whole load behind, and with each new day, I have new memories to fawn over, but yet, instead of focusing on those happy times and reminiscing, my brain sits still, and lets me know I'll never see those memories in the flesh again.
I try to fill my world with a whole load more happy memories with new people, but sometimes that can be bittersweet, as I'll be reminded on days long past, and kinda find it utterly debilitating.
I mean - don't get me wrong, there is happiness in my life, I have a wonderful family and a fabulous group of friends - both online and offline - just, a lot of things remind me of these things that have passed and I'll not be able to cope with the loss of these times.
I guess, in short - - How do you move on, whilst simultaneously holding onto the memories you hold dear?
Man, I dunno. :B I generally just leave the last part of my life behind and try not to think about it.
I just remember that what I moved on from had helped shape me to where I am today. Whether good or bad, the point is that you are still here, and you had the will to keep going. That's an achievement in itself.
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Heh - I guess that is true about some things! I should learn to let some things go, but sometimes the old brain drifts back to said memories.
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This is also good. I think maybe I should learn how to put more of a positive spin on all of the things that have shaped me. I should try and do that more often.
Thanks guys.