Once again the song should say it all · 10:37pm Sep 25th, 2014
I hope its okay Calm winds if i use the most resent message i sent you to explane that way i feel i just cant typ it again
hay whats up, i totaly forgot that i was scheduled to substitute for one of the teachers at the grade school today so when i looked at my calender i saw what class i was subing for and i subed for the thing i hated the most in school..... sex education
and so i don't know if its different anywhere ells but in this class today's lesson was the worst thing possible, andi don't know if it's soposed to be tought in only high school but where i live right know its tought at middle school and high school
but yeah other than that i had a hard time keeping my emotions in cheek in the middle school cus at the pre school i can cry and the little kids wont know why and if they ask i can just tell them you wouldn't understand and i would stop but i cant do that in the middle school cus they understand and would tell one of the teachers or the Principal and thats the last thing i need so yeah but the thing is i have no idea why this is upseting me as much as it is im trying to look an the bright side but i cant something wont let me so when i got home Lily was with me she went to her room to do homework and i went to my room thats so fare away form Lilys and i cryed cus i couldn't hold it in anymore and i hate to wait for Jessie to get home and Lily cant hear me so my only option is to cry....
why is the world doing this to me i get one taste of something that could posibly change my life around and make eerything so much better and then its gone if i get something good i lose it i lost my baby i lost my cousin im about to lose my brother when he goes to prison cus i know he will i lost so many friends to suicide and bullying and im just waiting for the day i lose Jessie or Lily or mittens i don't see the point in waiting for that day to come if it's just going to upset me even more if i lost Jessie i dont think i would be able to last i think the longest amount of time i could last is a week before i would kill my self if i lost Lily i wouldn't last a month before i atempted to kill myself and if i lost mittens it would only add on to the depression and just make things worse i just..... uhhgg..... why should i wait when i know that all im going to get is pain
I'm so sorry! Is there any way I can help?
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im not sure probably not iv been in pain for so long and i just cant take it anymore
2483615 Please don't kill yourself! You still have Jessie and your friends on here and any other friends and family!
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why keep holding on if i know im just going to fall of the cliff latter and there is no point to me in savering something nice if im just going to lose it in the end
2483656 You don't know that things won't get better.
2483656 He's right Rainbow and even if there is darkness shrouding your life it won't cover your entire life because there is a small glimmer of light in all darkness and that light comes in the form of the special someone in your heart: Jessie, the daughter you've adopted: Lily, the pet you have: Mittens, and all of the friends you have both here in the fandom and in real life. Where there is darkness there is also light and you have all of us here to help.
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I'm sorry that things aren't meeting your expectations. I remember back when I was in grade school, we were learning sex ed. there were only two classes one for girls and one for boys. Then on the 2nd day of the class they switched the video tapes so the boys were watching the girls video and the girls were watching the boys video. All of the kids im my class were shocked to see it, as was I, but after the class ended we all just started laughing
. We were all embarrassed watching that video, we couldn't look at the screen, but embarrassment will always happen and keeping emotions in check is key to dealing with it. Either act like it never happened, laugh about it, or toughen up (sorry if that last suggestion is mean, my dad always says that to me). Those boys that were bulling lily,you were teaching the class right?, I would have called them out on it, then I would make them feel embarrassed. Showing that you wont stand for bullying and gives the kids a quick lesson on Karma.
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no the buleying tok place in te hall way and farther away from me and sory for te tones of oveus errors i really drunk rigt know as you could see in my most resent post
2484320 thats ok I can read it, and I saw your lastest post
I'm in a Nyan cat mood now 
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hahaha
haha i just thought it would annoy the hell out of everyone
2484346 you need to do better that to annoy me. XD