the Salty Ocean Wind made the Seagulls Cry

This is the blog post that I promised you. Well, kind of… But here I´ll explain why I wrote my newest story and some other things.

You can find the story here. I suggest you read the story first before going on, because otherwise you’ll have no idea what I’m talking about.

“The Salty Ocean Wind… Made the Seagulls Cry.” The Of Monsters And Men-fans (OMAM) will recognize this line from the song ‘From Finner’. I like the song, it’s beautiful. Just like Yellow Lights, Your Bones, Dirty Paws… I like them. You should play them while reading it, it’s a great mood setter.

Now, why have I written this story?

This story is actually a story among others that I didn’t post and will not post because they’re too short or just not good enough. This one, however, had passed the 4000-words mark and was the best I’ve written in my state of mind.

You see, like the story and the former blogpost suggests, I’m not happy. I’m not going so far that I’m getting depressed, but it’s that I’m troubled with… stuff in real life and on this site. Some of it I can’t help, and some of it is my own fault. For now all I can do is write stories in the hope I’ll feel a bit better afterwards.

One of the problems here on the site is… well, I’ve pissed somebody off and I’m not happy about that. I’m sorry, and I feel really bad about it. If you read this, I just want to say again that I’m sorry.

That aside, I want to note that I’m an atheist with an open mind. I don’t mind if you’re Christian, muslim, Jewish or anything else. (Just don’t shove it in my face that I should believe in God or something… the usual.) I don’t believe in God. I believe in something else entirely. If I have pissed off somebody with my story, I’m sorry.

*A little note: the Elysian Fields are the Greek equivalent to ‘heavens’. Since they already have Hell (Tartarus) they’ll have the heaven as well (Elysian Fields). They also have a ‘limbo’, a realm where you will forget yourself, for the souls who haven’t done nothing special in particular. They will reincarnate when their time is there.

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Over time, I’ve grown more and more unsure about my writing. Is it good enough? Is it worthy of this site? Is it likable? Can I write, or should I go? Maybe I should stay, but if you say I should go… I’ve done so much, but I haven’t done even more. Things I should’ve done, things I could’ve done.

I’m taking a break. Short, but still. You won’t hear from me, see me, for an unspecified amount of time. No blog posts, no story updates, no story. For days, weeks, maybe even months. If you miss me… I will come back if you need me.

You see, I, you know… I don’t have a lot of friends in my neigbourhood. I want to have friends, but I’ve done things and seen things that I’ve lost trust in ‘friendship’. That from a pegasister unicorn who loves a show that’s all into friendship! Ha! The irony. Sweet, bitter irony.

Maybe true friendship will find me, maybe I will find it. But for now… I can’t. I was foolish enough to think I could have real friends on places they aren’t. Here, there, everywhere. I had to pay for it, dearly.

To end this post on a bit less sadder note… here. The Smile song. It always makes me smile, hopefully it makes you smile too.