Blog Rant · 4:37am Apr 9th, 2014
Nothing important here, just me writing some thoughts and overall complaining about life so feel free to skip over if you dont want to hear the problems of my life.
And with that out of the way, I'll start off saying that its getting harder to say "I'm doing good" when people ask me when I'm not. Honestly these last some weeks have been some of the most miserable in my life. I almost no interest in doing anything. I just feel like I want to sleep all the time. I've barely updated my stories. And I havent even scratched my read later list.
And yet I have trouble expressing this to the people around me right now. Honestly, I feel like Pinkie Pie from SPark's story "Honey Pie". I would link it but I am on a mobile. If you havent read it yet then I recommend it.
I dont know if how Im feeling could be classified as depression because i dont know if its that bad. Sure i dont feel good internally, but I also feel blank or maybe even a little numb. It could just be me becoming tired of my deployment, or the bit of marriage issues im having, in which case it makes me believe even more that its not depression and simply me just going through a bad time in my life.
And of all the things im worried about, im afraid it is also affecting my story writing. This last chapter of 2POTN just felt off, and im afraid the next updates im planning for multippe stories will all be bad.
I dont know... im just rambling now because hey, its the internet. And its easier to post your problems here than say them aloud because you just lock up. Dont worry, im not suicidal or believe im severally depressed. And i believe my marriage will recover. It just isnt a great time for my life right now. Some days are good so its not all bad, so i believe things will get better. Just thought writing it out might help.
Sorry for the rambles of a stranger.
well i may be a little late but if you're still feeling down and unhappy try writing a list of things that make you happy. stick them everywhere around you so you can help but look at them. make it your homepage on your computer and above all take care of yourself man because you only get one shot at life :) dont spend it on the verge of a stress induced heart attack. good luck and eagarly waiting for the next few chapters of your stories.
ps. depression isn't a you've got it or you don't kind of thing its like the volume on a stereo you can have it set to 1 or it can be cranked up to 50. its not like a cold
2009175 Thanks. Still feeling bad if not even worse now, but just the fact you went out of your way to leave a supportig comment helps
no worries bud :) happy to lend a sympathetic ear if you ever need one.