confession that i need to address T.T

hey everyone, In case youre wondering, or not, i announced 4 new stories to be arriving this year, one of which was supposed to be a christmas one. I know I said I would give u all these stories, and I plan on delivering what I promised, but recent events have changed my life, mostly for the better, but also for the worst. first off, i finally got my first real full time job as a costumer service agent, and while the job is great as well as the pay, I havent forgotten about all of you and my love for writing. I wanna continue writing and get one of my stories published, but I have been having a serious case of writers block recently and all the creativity i have is completely gone. I have great ideas, great stories, great characters and setups, what i dont have is the strength or the intelligence to pull them off. the reason I was able to write Lost Highway so well is because the story was inspired by my past relationships with friends and I got really close to one of them who, while making my life a living hell (she was my ex and was very abusive emotionally and verbally and other stuff i wont go into detail here), I was able to understand how self harmers were, what they went through and what they felt and suffered through. Lost Highway is a character study about two people who used to self harm and tried to find ways to cope and avoid relapsing. thats why I wrote it so well and so realistically. i got praise from many of my friends who either used to or still self harm and they said I properly represented how a common self harmer is. with inspiration and creativity as well as a passion, I was able to create Lost Highway and it stands as my best work ever. Sadly, I wanna continue writing but i dont feel creatively capable of doing it. I want to write my Bioshock infinite crossover story but I dont know how to do it. I want to write my Applejack erotic/romance fic but i dont feel capable of doing it. I feel really sad and upset about this because writing is my greatest talent ever and I wanna write more for all of you to enjoy, but I just dont feel any motivation to do it, as well as creative capability. I guess I just wanna know if anyone even cares or even wants to care about these stories and these characters, rather than be reduced to filth like Twilight or Mortal Instruments. I wanna write a story that will blow people away. something that will make Twilight disappear into obscurity. I was really hoping Lost Highway would be that story, and at first, It felt like it would be. but now I feel drained. i just wish I had that same motivation i had before. sorry for wasting your time.

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[Dimiein]

just go write somthing being a good writer means you overcome motivational issues and write. if your projects arent interesting to you anymore than do somthing else.