Busy. · 12:03am Dec 4th, 2013
Sorry I haven't been on in a while, a lot of things happened, are happening, and will happen, so I don't have a whole lot of time left to devote to writing anymore.
First item on the list - My life has gone a bit downhill. My anxiety is ratcheting up, won't stop going up, and is tearing me apart. I actually snapped a couple of weeks ago, and when I snap I basically just collapse onto my bed and cry for a good half hour or so. Second, the bullying has picked up again. Big time. Not physical (yet) but a lot of verbal and a lot of psychological. Third, I can't stop worrying. I have a number of friends with suicidal tendencies, so I spend most of my nights awake (as if I didn't already) worrying about if they're alive or dead. Fourth, I've found I have sleep apnea, which means I can't get REM sleep, and my body jolts me out of it if I enter REM, so I apparently haven't truly slept in years. Fifth, I've kind of lapsed into some problems with addiction. I'm not drinking or doing drugs, but I'm smoking, and I thought that helped but now it doesn't and I can't stop. I almost became addicted to self harm but I cut myself (ha) off of that before I did.
Second item on the list - A few firsts have occurred. First actual concert (went to see Streetlight Manifesto), first successful baking attempt (baked a cake for my teacher's birthday), first time working with a charity (worked with Emmanuel Fellowship, a local church, to help feed the homeless on Thanksgiving. Side note, they were the only church that would let me volunteer, as the rest of the churches in this town turned me down for being atheist.), and first time protesting (protested Black Friday outside the parking lot of a Wal-Mart, got arrested for "disturbing the peace", was let off with a warning).
Final item on the list - I'm sorry. I'm sorry for not having updated in so long, for dragging you guys on for months without updates, and I swear I'm working on TCIB as fast as I can. I have big plans for this story, and I can only hope you guys won't hate it, or won't hate me.
Peace out, chummers.
-Jacob
ah man that seriously sucks, I hope everything turns out alright by the time you can completely return man.
Take care of yourself, all of that sounds really stressfull and sucktastic, best of luck to you.
-archer